Every Ending (COMPLETED)

Kabanata 25

Kabanata 25

Truth

His arm on my waist loosened a bit. I took that as an opportunity to get myself off of him.

"So you're saying that... you like me?" His eyes twinkled with amusement.

Tumaas ang kilay ko. Bakit gulat na gulat siya? Alam kong nakakapansin na siya sa mga kilos ko pero bakit gumaganito siya?

He knew it even if I didn't say it to him. He just wanted me to confirm what he thinks with my own mouth.

"Not anymore." I looked away. "I-I liked you before. Hindi na ngayon." I stammered.

Damn it! Ang lakas ng loob ko para sabihin 'yon!

I glanced at him when I didn't hear a thing. His eyes were still filled with amusement that's why I frowned.

"I said I liked you before, hindi na kita gusto ngayon!" I repeated, emphasizing the word 'before'.

He probably thinks that he's right! Siguro akala niya nagpapakipot lang ako no'n at pinapalayo siya dahil ang totoo naman gusto ko talaga siya.

He did his best to act seriously, stopping himself from smiling. He even narrowed his to keep himself really serious.

"Okay then..." Aniya. Tinitigan niya ako ng ilang saglit.

"Gusto mo ako dati. Pero hindi na ngayon?"

"Yes." Mabilisan kong sagot.

Tumaas ang isang kilay niya.

"Are you sure?"

I didn't answer him. Tumingin lang ako ng masama na parang sinasabing, 'alam mo pa sa 'kin."

He tilted his head. Nananantya ang bawat tingin niya sa akin kaya naman nag-iwas ako ng tingin at humugot ng malalim na hininga.

I looked at the surrounding. Madilim na din at wala na ang araw. The sun was already set, but then there's the moon, slowly showing and brightening. And I know, hindi din magtatagal, lilitaw naman ang mga bituin at magliliwanag.

Hindi ko mapigilang mamangha sa naisip. Sa medyo katagalan ko ng nabubuhay, ngayon ko lang na-appreciate ang ganto kaliit na bagay.

I suddenly thought about endings. I experience a lot of bad and sad endings, I thought before that maybe happy endings are not really meant for me. But this little thing about sunset makes me hope, na siguro magkakaroon din ng maganda ang buhay ko sa bawat pagtatapos ng ibang bagay. Aalis ang araw at papalit naman ang buwan, dagdagan mo pa ng mga bituin.

Just like what'll happen about me and Gen after this. There are times that I've hurt because of my feelings towards him- hell! I've just earlier! But then, it doesn't mean that I didn't learn from it. At iyon ang masasabi kong magandang bagay na nangyari dahil sa nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

I learned. And I know somehow, I can use or apply that in the future.

Marami din akong bagay na natutunan dahil sa nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

Isa na ang bagay tungkol sa katapusan. Na siguro, hindi naman lahat ng nagwawakas... malungkot. Because at the end if the day, may mga bagay din na ikaw mismo ang magdedesisyon kung paano mo tatapusin. There are some things that you can decide on how'll you end those. And if its ends sadly, it's your own fault. Walang ibang sisihin kundi ikaw.

Just like what I'm trying to do earlier. I wanted to end these things between us (as if we have something) calmly and peacefully. Hindi naging maganda ang pag-uusap namin, but look at us now... we're both appreciating the peaceful ending of the day, both quiet and looking at this beautiful scenery.