a patchwork quilt of maybes and almosts ✓

fall

Here's #2... Hope you enjoy... Thanks to Bruhimkelly and yalieen_ for reading the last one :) Y'all really making my **dreams** come true hehe

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it's been

a long

time

too long

in my

opinion

and still

i'm waiting

"you're

lucky

you're

happy

you have

so much

to

live for"

but i do not

want

to live

if it will

always be

this

struggle

i'm not

suicidal

or even

depressed

i'm just a

kid

who's past

the point

of saving

i'm just a

girl

who gave up

a long

time ago

i'm on this

threshold

walking on this

tightrope

with everybody else

and nobody is

looking down

because they

don't

want

to fall

but i'm staring

at the ground

as if

falling

is all i want

even though

i would never

forgive myself

if my toes left the

tightrope

and i tumbled

towards the

pavement

it's a

fantasy

a hopeless wish

though all wishes

are hopeless

anyways

but once

just for one

moment

i let myself

imagine

what it would be like

to fall

to twist and turn

as the air

whooshed

around me

and as soon as

the moment

was over

i went back

to my life

to my smile

to the facade

that i wear

until

i fall

asleep