a patchwork quilt of maybes and almosts ✓

apologies

my longest poem yet, mostly because it was more of a confession than a poem :) happy new year! here's to 2021 being a year for rebuilding, healing, and coming together as a world <3

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i'm sorry

that i'm not

the daughter

you wanted

me to be

and tried

so hard to

raise

i'm sorry

that i lie

to you every

single day

because i

would be more

sorry

if i didn't

i'm sorry

that i can't

live up to

your expectations

and that i

don't have

the character

and morals

that you wish

i did

i'm sorry

that i disappoint

you

when i don't

try hard enough

or i

complain about

what i have

when it's

more than

enough

i'm sorry

that i don't

have the

guts

to give up

but for that

i'm sorry to

me

not you

because if i

did

i'd be sorry

to you

for hurting you

when you did

nothing but

love me

i'm sorry

that i blow up

the little things

and i can't

let go

of the past

i'm sorry

that i care

so much

about the

material

things

about fitting

in

when you never

did