Mirrored Therapy (K.TH)

8.mirrored therapy

⚠trigger warning ⚠
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𝓘𝓽𝓼 𝓬𝓻𝓪𝔃𝔂 𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓭 𝓣𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓵𝔂 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓽𝓸 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓲𝔃𝓮 , 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓮𝔁𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓲𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓲𝓻 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮

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"What was that for kim taehyung"

To which he faintly smiled

"You are so fragile" He said

I gave him a confused look

"I was feeling that few seconds you experienced,for a whole 2 years. I was choked and made breathless not physically but mentally. I felt like i couldn't breathe, like i was being cut from the air supply. I was angry and
wanted to shout but There was a huge knot in my throat that was always hurting me to let it out. But it was muffled. I couldn't think properly,it was all messed up.i was the reason for all this and i deserve it. "

I placed my hand of the back of his palm and rubbed it gently. He looked at me gave that smile he usually has.

"Taehyung, but why did you do that to me? " I asked him gently

"I don't know, i didn't know how to explain how i felt and how was feeling.
I don't know what possessed me but i wanted to show you and make you feel how i felt. I'm sorry" He said lowering his head.

*That's it!! I know what to do, this might be a wrong idea but if it helps him then I'm fine doing it*

"Taehyung, from now on mirror everything you feel and you felt from your past on me.
you got a problem in expressing what you feel like into words ,so you're doing this physically to explain how you're feeling to me. I've never come across something like this but I'm sure instead of normal therapy, this 𝙈𝙄𝙍𝙍𝙊𝙍𝙀𝘿 𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙍𝘼𝙋𝙔 might help you" I said looking confidently into his eyes.

I could tell from his expression that he is shocked to hear that confession.

"N-no, i might hurt you doctor" Hi said with a worried look on his face

"I told you to call me y/n, and it's fine. As your therapist who's job is to help you, that would be the least i can do,i will try best to help you taehyung.

*ok i know he's not comfortable about it yet so lemme change the topic*

"So taehyung, kim seokjin is your brother? " I asked him as we sat on a bench

"He is my cousin and my care taker, he's been with me since a long time, he might me irritating but he always stood by my side, in fact after that incident I'm still alive and that's because of him" He said with a warm smile looking at his fiddling fingers.

*that incident again? What could it be? Well i won't trouble him right now asking what it is*

"Oh so you're pretty close with him ,thats nice! well now you can go and rest now" I said smiling and getting up from the floor. He got up as well and walked away but then he suddenly stopped and looked at me

"Is something wrong? Did you forget something? " I ask him

He hesitated for a while but
"umm y/n, i didn't eat dinner yet so umm...would you like to i mean do you want to eat dinner with me? " He asked while slightly blushing

*omygod he is so cute!!! ಥ‿ಥ
I want to keep him my pocket and squish those cheeks out of his face*

"Haha yeah sure taehyung" I said giggling

Our dinner talks were just about some random stuff, our childhood, our favorite tv shows, it went smoothly.
There was nothing i could take a note about in our conversation regarding his therapy.

We went to our rooms but i forgot to tell his tomorrow's session time so i walked back to his room, mobiles phones are not allowed for the patients that's obvious.

As usual i knocked the door and i knew it was not locked so i walking in to see taehyung shivering on the floor crying and i can tell he's having a panic attack

-taehyung pov-

I came back to my room and plopped on my bed.
*rolling on the bed covering my face*
"That was so embarrassing!! I stuttered while asking her to have dinner with me"

Bit seriously it was perfect until two years ago but-but because of me it all just turned upside down.
"These tears rolling down my face, i don't even deserve to cry." I layed on my bed

All these memories will never leave me, they will always haunt me like nightmares and those words are like mosquitos, always stings ,it never ends and there's me who tried to cover myself with the truth but the fragile truth couldn't save me at all, i made myself stand naked to these stings.

I broke the best thing i had, is it even ok for me to be still here? I don't know anything anymore, my vision is going grey, i can't feel my body, this tension inside my heart is making me remember everything to the very point of my guilt.
Im loosing control over my body

Oh wait i see someone coming towards me, is that y/n?

It's all blurry and everything is turning black.....

-y/n pov-

"Taehyung? Taehyung??? Are you okay?" I asked him taking him into my hands

"It's ok, I'm here and i will always be here for you taehyung. No matter what i want you to have faith in me and trust in me , please everything is going to be alright, i don't know what happened but you're not the one to blame" I hugged him, i hugged him very tightly until he eventually fell unconscious in my arms

~time skip~

At least he's resting now, he had such a bad panic attack, he was good and seemed ok at the dinner but now seeing him like this breaks my heart. I'll just let him rest for the next two days without any sessions. That would be better

I never talked to him before though i saw him two and a half years ago, i just saw him a few times and he didn't even spare a glance at me but everytime i saw him i knew that i liked him. I wouldn't call it love at first sight or anything but whenever i saw him i wanted to be with him. I genuinely wanted to stay beside him.

I thought this is just temporary feeling when i didn't see him after but when i saw him again the feelings i thought were fake and that died were just hiding and immediately came out to seek my heart again.

Crazy how much i care about a person who didn't even knew my existence till now

And clearly don't know if my feelings would be accepted or will they even last long?

[AUTHOR'S NOTE:  There is actually a therapy named as mirrored therapy/ mirror therapy(MT) in medical field which is used to improve motor function after a stroke. Please google for further info about it.
I previously never knew that such therapy existed and  came up with the idea and story name impulsively. (Pure imagination)
But it was interesting to learn something new  ^~^ ]

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