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Boy in Luv

"You're joking." Were the only words I could reply with. I stood up and I was light on my feet as the confusion of everything rushed to my head. "I-... Jin..." I tripped up over my own words. "Savannah. Of course, I'm not joking. I joke about a lot of things but my feelings for you is not one of them." Jin replied as he too rose to his feet.

"Jin we can't..." I began. "But you're not saying that you don't feel the same way." Jin interrupted. I sighed and started walking backwards as Jin tried to draw closer to me. "Well, of course, I feel something towards you. But it's complicated Jin." I tried to find the words but nothing seemed clear in my mind.

Namjoon, Jimin, Taehyung and now Jin, whoever next would my heartache for? What is wrong with me? I hid my face in my hands and I felt Jin's hands try to pry them away. "Savannah, look at me." Jin pleaded his voice quiet and comforting. I shook my head and part of my childish side wanted to remain hidden. "Jin. Nothing can ever happen between us I'm your manager." My hands left my face and ran through my hair as my eyes looked up at him frustrated.

But Jin was Jin and I knew he wouldn't accept this for an answer. He broke every rule Big Hit claimed he had to abide by, he lived in the moment. I had to get away. I hadn't even noticed his hands carefully holding my shoulders firm in place.

Arms width distance between us was dangerous. Jin's eyes met mine and his lips drew closer to mine and my mind wandered to Jimin... I put my hands in front of Jin's mouth and pushed him away. Jin's dark brown eyes glimmered with hurt as he stumbled back. "Jin... you don't understand. I have feelings for you but my mind's all a mess..." I began. I had to be honest to avoid hurting him further.

"Jimin and I kissed the other day, or well he kissed me, but I kissed him back." Jin's eyes widened at my statement. I was expecting him to call me a bitch or look even more hurt by my actions but he remained silent so I carried on. "And well I slept with Taehyung, not like that because well... I'm still a virgin. I slept next to him, in his arms but I didn't entirely hate it either."

The room was still silent and I wasn't sure if he was even listening anymore but I carried on. "Namjoon comforted me on the first night here and I fell asleep dreaming of him but he isn't the only one I've dreamed about. I've dreamt about all of you. I think deep down ever since the beginning I've had some feelings for all of you." I declared.

I finally risked a glance at Jin who was chuckling to himself, I couldn't tell if he was angry and I was waiting for him to lash out or say something. But instead, I carried on. "I never acted on anything. I've always tried to be professional. I don't want or need anything from any of you. Maybe it's this drama with my apartment but I can't seem to even think straight which makes everything so much worse." I finished.

"I want my 2 months of shoulder massages Jungkook," Jin smirked as he spoke aloud. "Fine, you win fair and square." Jungkook's voice replied. My legs went weak beneath me and Jin rushed to quickly steady me. "What the hell is going on!" I demanded.

"We heard every word sunshine. I guess we'll talk tonight when we all get back." Hoseok's voice called out. Jin uncovered his computer desktop that had been on a video call. My eyes widened. "What's going on I don't understand...?"I stammered.

"Isn't it obvious?" Jimin laughed. I came closer to the screen to see them all huddled around a computer screen in Namjoon's studio. All six faces had wide grins plastered over their faces looking victorious as if they'd won the Grammy's. "You had no idea how hard it was staying quiet." Jungkook finally burst out laughing as him and Taehyung playfully shoved each other.

"No, it's not at all obvious what's going on. Are you all playing some game?" My eyes welled with tears. "This is really cruel... I didn't think you guys were capable of this..." my voice hitched on the lump forming in the back of my throat. I was about to run far away but Jin saw my flight response kick in and his hand gripped my wrist.