MBS1 : My Patient is a Mafia Boss

Chapter Eleven

BRIAR'S POV

"D-death...?" Halos bulong na sabi ko sa hangin. Biglang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.

Why is he here? I mean, seriously? Ayoko pa nga syang makita pero lagi kaming panagtatagpo ni tadhana. Ganun ba sya kaatat para sa love life ko? I groaned. Sure akong hindi ako makakaalis dito ng basta basta.

"I couldn't really leave you alone Briar. Even though it's just for one day and almost two nights. Fuck I don't know why too. I just couldn't go on with my day without glancing at you at all" He suddenly said. His voice was rough and somewhat exhausted. Naramdaman ko ring sumadal ang ulo nya sa balikat ko, and buried his face in my neck.

I was stunned. Not even flinching, dahil literal na nakatense lang ang katawan ko dun habang nakaupo. I don't know what to do at all. Wala akong maapuhan na sasabihin sa kanya pabalik dahil masyado pa akong gulat sa sinabi nya na yun sa akin. Damn... is that even a confession or something?

"You hate me, don't you? A lot? I'm used to it. But if your the one who will hate me, then I'm a fucking goner. I don't want you to hate me, but i have everything for you to hate me. It's hard to accept that fact. And i'm sorry about it. But I'm a selfish man, Briar. I rather choose you hating me just to keep you here beside me" Pag papatuloy pa nya. Though this time ay mas seryoso na ang boses nya. Mas humigpit din ang pagkakahawak nya sa akin.

Hindi makapaniwang nakatitig lang naman ako sa kanya. Making sure na I'm hearing him right. Ni away ko nga gumawa ng kahit na anong ungay para lang hindi maputol ang mga kung anong sasabihin pa nya.

This is so unexpected... Is this how he start his confession to me? So Mathew was saying the truth? Oh god...

"And no. Your not a fucking bed warmer nor a life machine for me. And believe it or not, your way too important to me. I don't have any good reason to tell you yet, but I just wanted you here beside me. I'm still confused myself Briar... Y-you made me feel this confused. You made me feel different and very unusual. I couldn't still figure it out. But one thing is for sure..." He said. Mid-stopping from his sentence as he look directly into my eyes. My eyes start's to widen and held my breath, dahil may paki wari ako sa kung anong sa sabihin nya.

"I'm starting to like you. It's still weird for me to fucking say this, but it's true. I don't know when it started, but I just wants you to stay with me and keep you beside me. I don't know, this is driving me knots. I may not be the best man ever in your eyes and I won't even think to be the best. But I'll be the best worst ever kind of a man in your eyes. I am like this and I won't change. I may be go soft to you. but it's still me. I want you to accept me like this. And if you won't, then I'll make you" He seriously said. Voice too firm and clear to the point na halos ikabingi ko na yun.

His starting to like me? And even like me already at this point. Is this a good thing? Is him liking me a good thing? Is liking him back won't be a bad thing? So Mathew is indeed not lying. I am too speechless for this.

Marahan akong kumilos at tuluyan na syang hinarap. Medyo nasurpresa din ako ng masilayaan ang itsura nya. He seems so stressed up. May nga eyeballs sa ilalim ng mata nya and his stables are starting to grow around his chin. He look miserable.

He hasn't been sleeping? Really?

Tinitigan ko pa ng mabuti ang kabuuan ng mukha nya. Agad akong namangha ng malinaw na malinaw kong nababasa roon ang mga emosyong dumadaan sa mata nya. Everything. Apaka open nya, hindi tulad ng lagi nyang expression na walang buhay at apaka blangko.

I can see his pain, confusion and anger. How he was so stressed and bothered. Malulungkot ang mga berde nyang mata. For the very first time, His so guard-less. Enabling me see his inside self. I am more than stunned at this point.