MBS1 : My Patient is a Mafia Boss

continuation

**BRIAR'S POV**

Tulala ako sa kawalan habang patuloy Ang pag agos Ng mga luha ko and i really think na hindi na sila titigil

Hindi ko na Alam Kong ilang oras na akong nakatulala sa kawalan, I'm not even sure Kung may isang oras na ba talaga akong nakaganito after Ng mga kalapastanganang ginawa nila... I already lose the tract of time...

I feel nothing... As I'm like nothing... Wala na akong matinong naiisip at Hindi ko maatim Ang mga nangyayari

Nangingilabot ako dahil paulit ulit na nag rereplay sa utak ko Ang mga ginawa nila...

Disgusted, Pain , angry, hopeless, frustration, stress... Halo Halo na Ang mga emosyong nararamdaman ko at sumasakit Ang ulo ko dun

I smile bitterly... I guess it's already time to give up... Stop hoping na may tutulong sa akin.

nabalik ako sa reyalidad then flinch Ng maramdaman ko Ang braso Ng lalaking katabi ko na walang iba kundi si lyde, his hugging me tightly while his sleeping na para bang takot itong mawala ako

And how I wish na ganun talaga, but sad it isn't...

And yes, hindi Ito umalis after Ng nangyari at nanatiling asa tabi ko and even sleep besides me, and i hate him...

I hate him not because on what he just did to me just this few minutes or hours ago, I hate him because his reminding me how death left me after getting me...

I hate him because his reminding me Death...

Haha... I'm totally crazy I'm still thinking about that after just what Happened to me... Well I guess this is how hopeless people think... And i already lose it anyway whats the difference?? Wala namang magagawa Ang panglalaban ko..

It's hard to fight when your fighting for nothing... And after everything I think I don't care what can ever happened to me...

Stupid!! How can you think that way!!?? Did you ever think how will people who knows you or your friends, family will feel and react if you give up here??

And you already said it, you already lose it once, losing it twice is not that hard to deal with!! You've gone through this before remember?? You just need to go through it again!!

Your world isn't just rotating for Death... There's still people out there who's caring and loving you!! And they might be so worried sick about you knowing that your gone!!

Ano nalang sasabihin nila sayo Kung susuko ka dito?? Marami ring Tao Ang dumedipende sayo briar!! Zack is there! Ezra too! Oh of course don't for get the little one, your Zefria and the whole hospital where thousand of people live is in with!! Their still waiting for you to came back, their still depending on you!

Common!! Are you even thinking Kung anong mangyayari sa kanila pag sumuko ka na dto??? And where's the briar who was known as the most aspiring Doctor who fought against all odds before?? Tatalikoran mo nalang ba Ang lahat dahil Lang dto???

Your better than this briar... Your better than this! Now move! And get out of here!! Stupid!!!

Tuya sa akin Ng inner self ko, at pinamukha lahat sa akin Ang mga katangahan ko, agad Lang Naman akong natawa duon

Well I guess I gone through much pain and all I can do was to laugh at it

"I'm already crazy" natatawang sabi ko pero agad na napailing, but I still have some point... I still need to fight a little longer...

Making may hopes high again I just wish na Hindi ko pag sisihan... Last na to promise, pag di to gumana I'll accept my faith and just live with it

"Last na to" bulong ko sa kawalan, humugot ako Ng malalim na hininga at marahang bumaling sa tulog na si lyde