~ take it back~

Chapter ~33~

Johnny's POV

I LOVE HER!

Can she not see that! I'm in love with her. I'm not gonna lie when I say that I get jealous when my friends touch her. I mean it turns me on but like I wish it was me.

DANIEL FUCKING DANIEL!

Man I hate that guy! He doesn't understand a thing! He thinks he knows her! I wanna be friends deep deep deep down inside of me but I will never forgive him for steeling the girl that I love!

A bunch of thoughts run through my mind as Lydia tells me what happened. I can control my anger so I just punch the wall and storm out. My eyes water as I hear her call my name.

I jump inside my car as I make my way towards my house. My parents gone. "Fuck!" I yell as I enter. "I can't do shit right!" I yell as the tears fall. "Fuck Johnny snap out of it!" I yell at myself. I punch the wall over and over again till I see blood. I sit on the couch with my head in my hands and just cry.

Lydia's POV

I lie in bed awake. I can't sleep. I don't know where Johnny is or who's he's with or what he's doing. It's very scary. I honestly miss him. I just wanna know if he's okay.

I stay up awake for at least 3 hours. It's about to be 5 in the morning. I try to go to sleep but I have flash backs of last night. I turn to the side and stare at the window. I hear my door open and then shut but I don't think much of it.

I turn back around. I try to close my eyes but I can't fall asleep. I close my eyes again but the same flashback but worse comes in my mind. I stand up and walk towards my window. I see the sun start coming up. I walk to my closet. I grab out some ripped jeans and a black crop top. I slip off my pjs and put those on. I comb out my hair and kinda curl it. I put on some mascara and clear lipgloss. About an hour later I get done. I grab my backpack with all my supplies and my cigarets. I grab a black sweater. I grab my white converse and slip them on. I shut my door and walk out. I grab my keys and house key and put them in my backpack.

I go lay down on the couch and stare at the ceiling. next minute I think I fell asleep but I wake up to the flashback of that night but all I can see is the guys faces and their pain. I start crying. I force my eyes open as I take a deep breath. I walk to the bathroom and wipe my eyes and fix my mascara. My phone goes off as I notice it's my alarm with the specific ringtone. I shut off the lights and close the bathroom door. I walk to the living room, grab my phone and shut it off. I see the front door open and notice the guys walked in.

I throw my phone in my backpack. I don't say a word as I grab out the keys. I hand it to tommy as I walk out with my backpack. I go knocking on Daniels door. He opens it. "You ready" I say to him but it comes out as a whisper. "Yeah" he says grabbing his backpack and walking out. "Hey are you alright" I hear Bobby say. I look up at him. "eventually I will be " I say to him. I walk to my car as I hear it unlock I hop in the back followed by the others as tommy starts it up. I lay my head on Daniels shoulder as my eyes close but flashbacks again last night play in my mind.

I open my eyes. The car comes to a Stop as we walk out. Tommy puts the stack back up and locks the car. He hands me the keys. "There's Johnny!" Dutch says. We all walk towards him but I just can't stop thinking of last night. I notice he's brought his mortal cycle with him. "What's up man" Bobby says. Johnny says hi to the others and looks at me but I'm to busy starring at the floor. "How are you feeling" I hear him say. My eyes water as look up at him. I turn and walk away. I walk towards my locker. I type in my code and put my back pack inside. I close it and walk back to the guys.

"Really how are you" he says standing up and walking towards me. But I just back up. "I needed you last night and you left..I needed you" I say as a couple tears slip. "You promised Johnny..you promised me that no matter how bad things get you will never walk out on me when I need you and I needed you last night and you did" I say as he grabs me in a hug. I sob into his chest. "You left" I say again. "Shh lydia I know" he says. "You know..but you left" I say walking out of his arms. "I can't remove the images of last night out of my head" I say as my voice breaks. "I got zero sleep because every time I would close my eyes I'd see it" I say sobbing and sitting on the grass. "Make it stop..make it stop!" I say sobbing. Tommy comes kneeling in front of me. "Make it stop tommy" I say crying as tears fall and continue and continue to fall. "I would do anything to make it stop lydia. We all would" he says grabbing my hands and pulling me up. "Group hug" Dutch says as we all group hug.

"I don't like feeling like this" I say grossed out by myself.

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