~ take it back~

Chapter ~50~

⚠️tw: mentions of rape in this chapter⚠️

"What's wrong with her" I hear ali say before I turn the corner. I shake off the image in my head. I end up bumping into someone dropping my books on the floor. "Here let me help you" he says. "No chase it's alright"I say smiling. I grab my books out of his hands. I look up and past him as I notice Caleb standing there. "Can you give me a second, just wait here" I say walking past him and towards Caleb. "What do you want" I say as I near him. "I asked you to stay away" he says. "I can't do that" I say to him. "You regret it now don't you. You know what I did you just hate to think about it" he says. "I raped Barbra last night" he says. He gets back in his car as I pick up a rock and throw it at his window.

He speeds off. As I let out a sob. I wipe the tears away and blink away the on coming tears. I turn and walk back. I see the guys walking towards me as I near chase. I look at Barbra. "Why you crying" Bobby says. I look at him. "Nothing I'm fine" I say. "I'll see you later chase, get some ice on that eye" I say walking past him. "Lydia why are you crying" Bobby says again. "I don't want to talk about" I say. "No you will talk about it" he says grabbing my wrist. "I don't want to" I say as a tear slides down. "Are you alright lydia" I hear Barbra ask. I look at her. "Is it true" I say. "Is what true" she says again. "Last night is it true.."I say as my voice breaks in the end. "Yeah it is" she says in a low tone. I go sliding down on of the lockers as I hug my knees. She bends down infront of me as the guys watch.

"You don't have to worry" she says. I look at her. "Oh I don't? Not after he raped me more than twice? I don't!" I say raising  my voice. "What do you mean raped" she says. "That's my ex boyfriend barb. He threatened me yesterday. Then threatened me again today! And it happens to you when it should've been me" I say crying. I let out a sob. "It should've been me" I say crying. "No one deserves this lydia" she says. I look at her. I pull out a knife from my pencil bag. I hand it to hurt. "From now on you use this" I say to her. "From now on you get a ride with Ali" I say disgusted with myself and Caleb. "He's the one attacking me by hurting you guys" I say as I stand up.

They look at me. "I'm sorry" I say giving her a hug. "Don't worry about it" she says. "No I have to. I live with this. I regret this" I say to her. "Just- I'm going to class" I say walking away. I wipe my under eyes. I reach the class room and take my seat. I lay my head down as I feel someone put their  hand on my back. I look up and it's Bobby. I close my eyes as everyone starts getting into the class to learn about our new lesson in history today. I keep my eyes closed. "Okay class today's lesson is rape" she says. My head snaps up as the guys look at me. "Can someone tell me what rape is" she says.

"Uhmmm what's about you lydia?" She says. I look at her as she smirks. "Rape..rape is when someone has their hand over your mouth to stop you from screaming as their hands roam your body, and your trying to move away but you can't, so you just lay there helpless thinking in your head what the hell hes going to do next and or your thinking of a happy place to distract you from feeling him on the inside. As he tells you not to cry or he'll do it again so you don't. You fake your moan so he thinks your "enjoying it". He's either alone or forcing your friends to watch and or he's taking turns with his friends well you beg not to be touched but it happens and you can't do anything to stop it" I say to her on the verge of tears.

"Thank you" she says. I take a deep breath. "How do you know it's about to happen" she says. "Ummm Allison" She says calling on another student but I stand up and walk to the front of the class grabbing choc. "I can answer that" I say. "1) is being followed, 2) is getting phone calls, 3) is when they show up to your school, 4) when you just can't escape them, 5) when they push you up against a wall and touch you in places you don't wanna be touched, 6) is when they force you to take your clothes off, 7) is when they start kissing you and your trying to wiggle out constantly repeating "no", "stop"" I say turning around and handing her the choc.

"How do you know all of this?" She says. I look at her. "Focus on the lesson, not my personal life" I say walking back to my seat. "Who can be the ones that force rape upon others? Lydia can you answer that" she says. I cross my arms. "Teachers, principals, uncles, ex boyfriends, fathers, step-fathers, friends, best friends, your friends dad, or brother, or boyfriend, you know it teach. Anyone is capable of rapping another" I say with arms crossed. "Who are victims of rape" she says. "Friends, females, even males, children" I say. She looks at me.

"Your smart" she says. "It's not smart when it's personal" i say.

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