Will It Always be Like This

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As Maurice was helping out the car my phone went off. Once I was out o reached into my clutch and pulled it out to see I had a text message.

Regina: Everything has been confirmed, so all there is left for you to do is get your outfit.

"Who's that?" He asked me putting his hand on the small of my back as we walked to the restaurant. "Regina" I commented simply as I replied to her. My family seemed to be more hyped about the baby shower than I was. I loved them for it though, they definitely were my support system.

Me: Cool! I was just talking to Lady about it earlier. I'll ask her to come with me, because I know you need to relax a bit. I've been running you ragged lately.

I wasn't even paying attention to the staff, I was just allowing Maurice to guide me to our table as I focused on my text conversation.

Regina: That's completely up to you love. I don't mind, you know I love spending time with you. 🥰🥰

Me: not to mention you get to spend time away from the rugrats at home and we always go to our favorite restaurant. 🤣😝

Regina: Pregnant ass! Not everyone gets excited about food!! 🤪

Me: Lol, whatever cousin!!😁🤣

After responding to her I put my phone back in my clutch and excuse myself so I could go to the bathroom. After I finished peeing I washed my hands. I always checked to see how the restaurant kept the bathroom because that said alot about how they kept the while place clean. I used a paper towel to open the door and held it with my foot while I tossed the paper towel into the trash bin. Everybody dont wash they hands after they wipe they ass and I sure don't want feces flavored bacon. 😂😂
Anyways, by the time I made it back to the table I already had a strawberry shake sitting in my place. I took my seat with a huge smile before I took a sip closing my eyes enjoying the taste. "That don't make no sense." Maurice told me with a chuckle. "What? I can't help that your daughter loves strawberry milkshakes." I said shrugging my shoulders and went back to enjoying my drink. "You getting the usual?" He was looking over the menu like he didn't order the same thing every time we came. "Yep." He put his menu down and started texting on his phone. The attention he was showing me in the car was gone now. I  took a break from my heaven in a cup long ro enough to ask him "So you ready to talk?" His eyebrows raised, but he didn't look up from his phone. "Talk" was all he said. I smacked my teeth and rolled my eyes. "I'm not gonna talk to you while your attention is elsewhere" I  was trying not to catch a quick attitude. I know I was just texting Regina, but it's not like I tried to get him to have a serious conversation while I did it. "Chill out. I'm listening." I huffed, sat back and rubbed my belly. "Who is that?" He finally looked up and I raised my eyebrows as if to say "you heard me". Before he could respond the waitress approached our table. "Have you decided what your having, or would you like to hear the specials for today?" She asked smiling politely. "Yeah, she'll have a stack of pecan pancakes with a side of turkey bacon, 2 extra bottles of the house syrup and a refill on that strawberry shake extra whip topping no cherry." After scribbling my order she looked up "And what can I get for you sir?" I liked the fact that although her attention was on him because he was speaking, she was being professional. I hate when women flirt with him, she's definitely getting a nice little tip. "I'll take a stack of pecan pancakes as well, scrambled eggs with cheese and a fried steak." She placed her notepad in her apron and grabbed my empty cup. "Oh, and let me get an order of hashbrowns too" she pulled the notepad back out to add that. "And I'd like to place an order to go as well. I want another stack of pancakes, but make them blueberry, a steak well done, and scrambled eggs with cheese add onions." I leaned forward and crossed my hands on the table. As soon as the waitress walked away I commented. "Somebody appetite has picked up! And since when do you like blueberry pancakes and onions? I never known you to order onions, as a matter of fact you don't like onions!" I pursed my lips and raised my eyebrows looking him dead in his eyes. "It's not for me." He stated calmly. "Duh! Whose it for though?" His eyes shifted away because he put his head down to focus on his phone again ( I guess). "I gotta stop by the hospital and drop this off when I leave here." I sat up straight and my eyebrows creased. "Who in the hospital? What happened?" I started thinking about who it could be, because the only person I knew that was close enough for him to go see at the hospital was his bestfriend Chris and his family. Maurice had been in foster care his whole childhood, him and Chris met in high school and have been tight ever since. His family treated Maurice just like one of their own. "Ann" he said it so low I almost missed it because I was deep in thought. I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding. "What? Who? Excuse me? You mind repeating that? I don't think I heard you right! Cause it sound like you said, you were taking the bitch you cheated on me with a plate!" At first he didn't respond, he just slowly raised his head to meet my eye contact. Right when I though I was gonna have to repeat myself he said "What I tell you about your mouth?  You gon learn." That's all this mutha fucka had to say to me?! Then he put his head down and started texting again on his phone like he didn't just shoot a fucking arrow through my heart. My breathing picked up, my nose flared and I pushed my chair back a bit so I could sit on the edge of the chair and lean in closer to him. "And that's your final answer?! I said with my teeth clenched trying my hardest not to raise my voice and draw attention to us. One thing me and him had in common, we couldn't stand being put on front street in public. "Are we gonna have this argument every time I do something for my kid? Because if so, it's gonna be a long hard ass road for you!" I could feel my whole damn body shaking. "You got me fucked up!" He bit his bottom lip and balled up his fist just as the lady came with our food. I sucked up a deep breath and sat back to allow her room for our plates. He didn't move back, he just linked his fingers and gave the waitress a huge fake smile "Thanks" he then focused on me and his face hardened. "Ok, I think that's about everything you guys ordered for the moment and I'll be right back with your shake mam. Can I get you a refill on you sprite sir? I guess she could feel the tension between us because she seemed nervous compared to the way she was before. We both shook our heads and I broke eye contact with Maurice taking in the large amount of food in front of me. It's funny because on our way here I was so hungry I thought I was gonna starve to death,but suddenly I didn't have an appetite at all. Maurice grabbed a napkin with silverware tucked in it and took a moment to observe it before he started cutting into his pancakes. He only used a small amount of syrup and ate them first because he hated cold and reheated pancakes. I didn't even want to be sitting across from him anymore. I  just watched him eating his pancakes shaking my head. I just wanted to scream how much of an asshole he was to the top of my lungs, but I closed my eyes, rubbed my tight belly and concentrated on calming myself. "Eat" he demanded. I popped my eyes open and inhaled a ragged breath before rolling my eyes at him. "Raichelle dont play with me" he didn't raise his voice or change his tone, but I knew he wasn't gonna be happy if he had to say it again. "Well if someone wouldn't act like an ass, I wouldn't have lost my appetite and you wouldn't have to try to force me to eat." I felt him stomp on my toes "Ouch" I squeaked. "Who the fuck are you talking to like that?" He squinted his eyes and bit his bottom lip. "I can't believe you just did that. You know I got on open toe shoes!" This dude bust out laughing so hard. He wiped a fake tear from his eyes and resumed eating. Whole time I'm looking at him like he stupid! "I dont find nothing funny about that Maurice" I glared at him. "Yo, chill out and feed my daughter" I smacked my teeth and huffed grabbing my silverware. He didn't take his eyes off me until I put the first bite in my mouth. I can't even lie, I had to stop myself from moaning and letting my eyes roll in the back of my head. OMGosh these pancakes are the shit (no toilet)! "Dude I haven't even been able to figure out if this is something I can even accept or not and your already throwing her up in my face like everything is hunky dory." I paused from my pecan orgasm long enough to complain. "Rai...baby...I don't mean to come off as insensitive when I say this so please don't take it that way, but you've already shown me that your going to accept the fact that I have a child outside of this relationship. I think your just having a hard time with where the boundaries should be between me and Ann." I literally stopped chewing and my jaw dropped. "As far as me doing for my child you already know theres no limit, so I'm sorry but this process not just gonna stop until you feel like you have the strength to pull your big girl panties up and get on board." I was startled by the clank my fork made when it hit the plate, because I hadn't even realized I let it go. "My children are growing as we speak and just like I see to it that Simone is taken care of I'm gonna see about my other one whether your throwing a hissy fit or not." I looked around to see if anyone was close enough to hear anything he had just said to me because I couldn't believe this dude. "So yes, I'm taking a plate to my baby mother so my child will be nourished." Man this is some bullshit! I'm screaming in my mind. He was just saying all of this while he fucking his food up like I shouldn't be affected by any of it. So calm and nonchalant like we were discussing what color to paint our bedroom wall or some shit. I mean, everything he said was true and on point, but why did he have to say it like that? "Eat Raichelle" Hell....he had more conviction in that statement than he did with anything else he had just said to me. "Do you even take into account that I'm 8 months pregnant with your child when say things like that to me? That maybe it might be hard for me to have to share this experience with someone else? Like...yeah your there when it's important, but there have been plenty times when I wanted to spent time with you or just to know that your by my side and come to find out you were cheating me out of that time, not handle business, but to be with her? The very woman that you now run to when she text and call you! Do you have any idea how that makes me feel?" I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to calm myself. "I think of you sharing the very same moments with her that were supposed to be just for me. How you place your hand protectively on my stomach. The fact that she knows your touch and responds with a kick. The way you talk to her and places kisses all over my belly. The gentle way you hold me and massage my lower back when it hurts or I cant get to sleep. The goofy conversations we had about baby names and nursery themes, our birthing plans. All of it, all of it Maurice!" I nodded my head as I wiped away tears. "Things that only should've been shared between us, she now is entitled to receive just because your going to be the for your child. God have mercy on everyone if it's a boy!! With that last comment I completely broke. I covered my mouth with both hands as I attempted to keep the whole restaurant from hearing the sobs that tore from deep inside. Before I could even process what happened Maurice was fastening my seatbelts in the passenger side of his truck. I was so embarrassed that I allowed myself to get that upset in a restaurant. I wanted to do this in a public place so that he couldn't smooth things over with sex and we'd be forced to talk through the issues. I had no idea he would say things like that and I damn sure didn't expect to act like that. I continued to gain my composure as he walked back in the cracker barrel and came out with 3 large bags placing them in the back seat before getting in the driver side. Once he closed the door,  he pulled out his cell and made a call "Ey, I'm on my way." His voice was emotionless. I almost hit the roof when I n.v heard a female voice respond. I can't do this shit! It's just too much! I couldn't really hear what she was saying, but it was way more than "ok" Maurice began shaking his head and he scrunched his face up "Naw, I ain't doing all that. Shit...you only getting this cause Rai wanted cracker barrel." My jaw dropped again. These mufuckas just talk about me in everyday conversations like it's cool and there's nothing to it! "Yo, cut all that shit out now. I got my wife in the car with me so either you shut the fuck up and let me bring you the food or you can keep running your mouth and eat that nasty hospital food. The choice is yours." He wasn't even looking at me. It was like he purposely didn't turn to me because he didn't wanna see my reaction. "That's what I thought. I be there in ten." Hanging up the phone he placed it on the cup holder before putting the truck in reverse.
The tension was so high in this car you could wrap around you like a sweater. I had no idea how to handle this shit. I felt crazy, because logically I knew he wasn't doing anything wrong by being there for the chick, but emotionally I felt like everything was a stab in the heart, or a slap in the face. Would I always feel like this? I wondered as I focused out the window at nothing. I hadn't stop crying since I started in the restaurant, but now I wasn't making any sounds I just couldn't get these damn tears to stop flowing and I felt like somebody was sitting on my damn chest. Everything he said to me just kept replaying in my head. Simone was acting a fool inside of me, it felt like she was doing gymnastics, but I didn't even want him to touch me at this point so I just dealt with the uncomfortable kicks so that he wouldn't try to help. When I notice the car stop, I looked up and we were outside of the hospital. Aw Hell Naw!! Why the fuck wouldn't he drop me off first? Thus dude really got shit twisted, like he really think shit is sweet. "I be right back" his voice was unusually low and kinda shaky. I just swallowed and redirected my attention to my lap. We were parked in the loading zone, sonic figured he wouldn't be long. I swear I have a mind to hop in the driver seat and leave his ass right now at this damn hospital with his little slut and make him find his way home. "FUCK" I yelled and put my head in my hands trying to shake some of this negative shit I was thinking and feeling. What the fuck is the bitch doing in the damn hospital anyway? It better not be a damn STD gone wrong because I will kill him and that bitch if I got burned. 😂😂😑😑 I chuckled to myself because that was a ridiculous ass thought, but that just goes to show what type of head space I was in. Now that I'm thinking about it, unless she just gave birth which I highly doubt, what the hell is a pregnant woman doing in the hospital long enough to need something to eat. Couldn't he just cash app her ass some money and she could get it when she was done. Now I was curious! but did I really wanna ask because asking about her wellbeing would open up a whole new door. I think I like it better just hearing about this shit when necessary the way I'm feeling right now. I had finally gotten calm when he came strutting out the doors like he was just God's gift. I smacked my teeth and picked up my phone getting ready to text Adonis. Fuck him and her right now!

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