Save Me

Chapter 55

His head slips from mine and falls in the crook of my neck. His blonde soft hair tingles my skin that contacts with him. His arms tighten around me as I lock my eyes that are filled with tears. I bite my bottom lip to distract my heart and mind from what it's happening.

His body is leaned all over mine and the heartbeat of his body is like it's in sync with my own, the speed of our blood running, the amount of oxygen we take, it's like we're one piece slit in little two.

It's overwhelming; all my body seems to start relaxing after all these days. I feel my heart beating more slowly as the peace is delivered back to me. My muscles, all my parts and cells seem to stretch. Like all the nerves, the exhaustion, the pain is taken away from me. Just like that.

He took all my pain away and returned my peace. Tears run down my cheeks silently when I realize how much I desperately need him. I need this demon who was disguised as the angel that was sent by Heaven to save me. I need him and I feel my heart flutter and break at the same time.

"I'm sorry," He whispers next to my ear. I unlock my eyelashes releasing unconsciously more warm tears and look at him. His face is buried in my neck but his blonde hair glows.

"I know you hate me, I don't blame you cause I did this to you...to us," He adds as a pained afterthought and realization. A few seconds pass quietly until he leans up and meets my watery eyes. A tear escapes but he catches it with his thumb before it can fall down.

"I miss you, Amelia," He confesses peering his blue eyes in mine. I get lost in the ocean I was beginning to love more at every second and I can't find anything but pain and honesty. Or maybe that's what I want to see and believe.

"Don't you?" I break eye contact at the question. He brings his hands in my cheeks before his forehead touches mine. "I miss us,"

"Corbyn," He leans in me though I stop him shaking my head. "I can't,"

"I can't do this anymore," I look up to him in surprise and shock. "I can't. I gave you time away from me but I can't do this. I can't stay away from you. I know you're hurting and it's because of me. All of his is because of me,"

"I'm sorry," I mutter and I see a scowl form on his brow.

"What?" Anxiety crosses his features making me wonder what he thinks I'll say. "I'm sorry I compared him to you. I was angry and I-I didn't mean it. You saved me that night and it wasn't fair to you,"

"I don't care about fair. Amelia, I love you," He says pressing his fingers in my skin. His voice is waved, painted by tones of emotions; pain, exasperation. exhaustion but mostly need. "I love you more than I thought I could ever. You have so much power and effect on me that nobody had before. I'm so in love with you that I can't get you off of my head. I think about you every minute. All my thoughts and fears are consumed only by you. I need you,"

I gape at him not believing the words he just said at loud. This arrogant boy that was so angry at the world, that was playing with everyone, that never loved anyone, that was cursing in every sentence he formed, that didn't care about anything and anybody on this earth is standing before me letting his heart split open. Exposing his weakness and fears to me not being scared. This boy who I thought I disliked is looking down at me with pained eyes that portraying the agony of lack of love. My demon loves me.

"I was never gonna tell you the truth cause I was so terrified of losing you. I was so frightened you would leave the moment you had become so essential for me; even if I sucked at showing it. I didn't need anything else. Anything. I didn't care about what might happen the next day, about my parents...I didn't as long as I had you. You are the only constant in my life that I can count on."

Without catching a glimpse of his movement, his lips kiss the corner of my mouth sending sparks all over my blood.

"I never thought that I would fall in love with anybody. Ever. I was seeing how the love of my parents destroyed them, changed them for the worst and made all of us pay the price of it. I promised myself that I would never fall for someone. I assumed it was fake or destruction of the people who were connected by it. But then you came along," He mutters looking at me, brushing his nose in mine.

"And everything fell into pieces. I lost every bit of control I thought I had. You changed everything,"

Tears keep falling but he doesn't seem to mind; even though he notices every single of them that falls. This broken boy. The boy that changed my life since the moment he walked in my room so conceitedly like nothing mattered to him, with confidence that got under my skin and made me roll my eyes constantly.

"You're the best thing that has happened in me," His gaze falls on my lips and I stand still as he leans down and kisses my lips softly. He pulls away before they could actually contact. It felt like a memory of a kiss that took place in another past time. Like the whistle of leaves against the earth.

"I'm not going to give up on you...on us,"

I don't know what to say, what words to use to express the tornado of sentiments that whirl around my heart besieging it all together until one wins over them.

Us

Such small word but filled with so many meanings and promises that sometimes, it can't hold the weight we force in it. Sometimes for the better, some for worst; but sometimes we might have to reconsider to lighten its weight until we, firstly, can embrace all of its weight.

I don't know what path to take as I stare up at my blue stars that lighten my sky.