BEE POV
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AUGUST 24TH
Good Lord, does the fandom move fast. Within hours of the stream, I'd already gotten tagged in what seemed like hundreds of new fanarts depicting my character's gruesome death. I enjoyed it, honestly, looking through everyone's work and reposting my favorite ones.
I wanted to see SAD-ist's new animatic, whenever that was going to come out. I'd watched Dawn of the 16th, which was made shortly after I joined the server, so of course I wasn't in it. It may be all in vain, but I think all of us desperately wanted some recognizable line that would make it into the animation.
You know you've made it big when there's a cosplay tag with thousands of views of you on TikTok. I was proud of that one--and someone had already clipped my final words and turned it into an audio.
Watching my favorite cosplayers reenact my death was most heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time. God, that sounds narcissistic, but I was quite proud of my acting in the stream.
While scrolling through the fanarts, I came across a few that were tagged 'SapBee' or 'BeeNap', which I guess was the ship name for Nick and I. I liked a few and retweeted them, to stir the pot a little bit. It was absolutely hilarious to me to watch half of the fandom argue over DreamNotFound (which even I wasn't sure if it was real or not,) and the other half argue over BeeNap. They always founds something new to clip, whether it by my red face on stream or a leaked message that Nick would post.
I think the four of us liked to tease the viewers a lot. Constantly flirting, giving them hope, then tearing it back down.
I wondered how much of it was fake. When Nick made me blush on stream, was it because I was embarrassed, or was it because I was angry at him? When he would tease me and say that he loved me, was it real? Or was I getting my hopes up?
People were always trying to convince others that DNF was just platonic, but I rarely ever saw someone openly admit that they thought that whatever Nick and I had was just a really close friendship. Fuck, even our own friends seemed to ship it more than the viewers.
Alex messaged me one day, legitimately asking when we had started dating. I had to tell him we weren't, and wondered where the hell he'd gotten that from.
But Nick and I never talked about it. Sure, we had some laughs over the fanfictions and the ship videos we saw on TikTok; I sent him my favorite fanarts and he would send some in return. Christ, our relationship confused me more and more every day.
Nick sent me a piece of work that was from the stream, a sad comic portraying what Techno, Tommy and I had been arguing about. At the end, it showed Nick's character, Sapnap, standing by my grave. Ugh, was I getting emotional over a fictional death? I went to the artist's page and retweeted it.
Nick:
Why am I always involved in the lore?
Me:
Ok so what I'm hearing is that if I were to get murdered you wouldn't come to my grave because "you weren't a part of it"
Nick:
THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID
Me:
THAT'S WHAT YOU IMPLIED
GOD
WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME
Nick:
That's what you get for being a traitor
Never speak to me again
Me:
WELL IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT WILBUR LOVES TO WRITE ANGST
AT LEAST HE DIDN'T HAVE ME MURDER YOU
Nick:
SOMETIMES I WISH HE WOULD'VE
Me:
awh but then we would be ghosts together
ghost wilbur, ghost sapnap, ghost libby
Ghostbur, Ghostnap, Ghostby
Nick:
I already feel dead inside when I talk to you
Me:
I light up your life
Nick:
You give my life a new meaning😒
You're so cringey
Me:
How am I the cringey one when you just said I give your life a new meaning?
Sounds pretty cringe to me
Nick:
I never said that you gave my life a GOOD meaning
Me:
I do don't I
Nick:
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Yeah you do
And somehow I was still trying to figure out why the world wanted us to be together. I screenshotted part of our conversation and posted it out to the Twitter.
BEE (@LIBBEE)
look at this loser
*1 Image Attached*
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SAPNAP (@SAPNAPTOO)
This is a hate crime
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DREAM (@DREAMWASTAKEN)
It's ok sapnap i'll love u
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SAPNAP (@SAPNAPTOO)
Can we cuddle when i get there
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DREAM (@DREAMWASTAKEN)
I'll even let you wear my sweatshirts
I almost felt jealous.
BEE (@LIBBEE)
Bleh, get a room
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DREAM (@DREAMWASTAKEN)
We will, once sapnap gets here 😏
I shut my phone off and started to get ready for my evening shift at the Pizza Palace. Luckily I only had a short 5-8 waitressing shift, so I was definitely ready to make some money and then go to sleep. I knew I'd get yelled at by Lillian for being off for so long, but it was justified! I'd worked there long enough to get my paid vacation.
She'd made almost four people quit with her ugly attitude. We were severely low staffed and I was scheduled to work a fifty-hour week, not including whatever shift's I'd have to pick up. I knew people were bound to call out, with it being one of the last weeks of summer before school started up again.
I looked around my room and decided I'd buy some boxes and bins at Walmart to start packing my things. I'd already called Lydia and told her I was willing to come up, and would drive back to North Dakota at the end of September. I took a deep breath, shut off my lights, and closed the door behind me.
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