𝐄𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐥 | Jegulus • Marauders

𝕮𝖗𝖚𝖈𝖎𝖔

𝙍𝙚𝙜𝙪𝙡𝙪𝙨 𝙋𝙊𝙑

You can do this.

It's only a bit of pain.

Plus the world's most dangerous wizard.

It'll be over soon.

If Sirius can do it then so can I.

I just have to believe.

I can't do this.

It's fuck ton of pain.

And the world's most dangerous and feared wizard.

It won't be over soon.

I don't believe.

The train was stopping.

I glanced out the window and saw mother and father standing on the platform, proudly.

I wanted to throw up.

I wanted to scream.

I wanted to curl up and die right there and then.

I pulled myself off the seat and out of the compartment door. I followed the herd of people that were exiting the train.

With every footstep I felt my heart quicken in pace.

Time had slowed down all around me.

I was trapped in a bubble of my own thoughts.

Soon enough I found myself standing in front of Walburger and Orion Black.

Mother put her arm out for me to grab whilst we apparated back to Grimmauld place. At least I had an excuse to throw up now.

Grimmauld place seemed less like home than it had ever done before.

It was terrifying.

It made me loath this family even more.

The only thing that had ever treated me halfway to a person was Kreacher and he was a fucking house elf.

That and Sirius but I made it quite clear that he was nothing to me.

" Anything you'd like to say, dear? " Walburger asked, venom dripping from every word.

The floor looked far too interesting for me to be able to look up.

" No? "

I tensed up, I knew from the years I spent listening to Sirius of what was going to happen.

" Well we'll have to sort that out won't we? "

I finally looked up from the ground and into my mother's dark grey eyes.

" I said, won't we. "

I opened my mouth slightly.

" Yes mother ",

I looked back down at the floor.

" I can't hear you. "

I didn't say anything.

I wasn't going to.

I didn't have to.

" We need to be taught lesson I see, that can be arranged ", I could feel her smirk burning into my skin like a poker.

" Crucio! "

Screams of pain filled the room, screams I later recognized to be mine.

I fell to my knees almost instantly.

It felt as if my organs were being torn and shredded and knives were stabbing through my skin.

The pain didn't stop.

It felt as if it would never stop.

I'm reality I don't suppose it ever will.