"What do you mean 'I can't eat?!" I exclaimed, Why can't he eat?
"I.. I just can't! It makes my stomach hurt w-worse.. And I get awful headaches a-and nosebleeds.. Last time I passed out!" He cried, now that I think about it.. It's probably because he ate too much.
"Listen, Wilbur.. I know it's hard to eat but bare with me, I can help you. J-just.. Don't eat too much." I stuttered, He nodded slowly.
"Look I.. I went through this too and.. It sucks. I was in the hospit- No. Nevermind sorry this is about you.. I can help you eat slowly!" I smiled, trying not to overshare.
"A-are you sure..? Dont you have to deal with Tommy.." Wilbur questioned, being selfless.
"No! I can deal with you all, Im fine with it." I intervened, I wanted to help.
Even if it mentally drained me."O-ok.. What do I need to do? I hate this." Wilbur said, He was like me when I had an eating disorder. Hated it.
"I'll help you with what to eat and portions, we can start tomorrow morning." I smiled happily. He lightly smiled back and thanked me.
He headed off to his room where he was originally going before I stopped him. I started walking to my room until I noticed Tubbo staring at me from being the wall.
"Tubbo?"
"Ah! Uhm.. H-hi.." He whimpered whilst getting caught.
"What is it?" I asked.
"I was listening and wanted to ask.. Are you Ok?" Tubbo asked, I hadn't heard that in awhile. I smiled,
"Im fine Tubbo!"
I lied.
"Oh! Ok... Have a goodnight Karl." He hugged me then ran with Ranboo to his room.
I stared at the empty living room, the light was super dim. I was saddended along with the air in the room. Rough.
"Why am I here?" I spoke quietly to myself as I sat on the floor.
I have always questioned myself. If my friends just use me or not. If they even refer to me as friends? I kept thinking, Would everyone be hurting if I left? Or just find a new person to dump their feelings on. I wasn't as strong as I thought I was. I thought I had grown enough to help others just as much as I helped myself. I had to help myself.
I was alone.Before I knew it I was crying and breathing heavily. And my hands were shaky. I was on the ground with my hands ripping my hair tightly.
helphelphelphelphelp
I sobbed loudly, loud enough for someone hear.
No one cared.
Why didn't they care when I cared.
I still have to care. I can do it myself.
I took a deep breath, getting myself out of my panicked state. Thank god.
I stood up and looked at the dim empty room.
How do I feel?
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Jealous | Tommyinnit angst
Fanfiction⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS⚠️ -eating disorder -self harm -suicidal thoughts -suicide ________________________ ☁️???????☁️ Tubbo meets a new friend named Ranboo, Ranboo is perfect in Tommy's eyes. Is his best friend replacing him? Surely not..? *Tubbo is now...