thoughts

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is this what you wanted?
of course not.
then why'd you do it? why did you make me feel so worthless? tell me!
you weren't there for me when i needed you.
i'm not the selfish one.
i never called you selfish.
then stop acting like i am. you knew i was struggling too. you knew i was-
struggling with what. me?
you didn't care to try to fix this.
i cant even take care of myself.
how does that make any sense?
i don't care about myself anymore.
but you love your physical appearance don't you?
i dont.
then stop acting like it.
i cant.
why? stop acting like someone you're not.
it helps me. you're not understanding my point here. i never left you.
oh really?
your actions effected me.
how?!
i live life walking on egg shells because of your actions.
i did nothing to hurt you! you ruined any chance that you had to save me!
i had to focus on myself.
am i not important enough to you?
you are important. just not healthy for me.
you can't let me go, i'm always going to be here.
i know. i hate you.
you can't possibly hate yourself! that's not how things work!
you're not me.
i am too. like you said, my actions effected how you live today.
are you proud of who you turned into?
of course not. you had dreams. what happened to them?
YOUR DECISIONS!
you made them too, don't forget that.
i think you have things mixed up.
you are blaming yourself for something you "didn't do"??
past me isn't me.
but i am you. i am a part of you. all your silly little mistakes, that's you. i'm never leaving.
you bring me nothing but pain.
you caused this.
you caused this. i didn't do anything.
do you realize what you're doing? you're yelling at the past you for making decisions. WHEN YOU MADE THEM! stop being so insecure about your past! how stupid can you be??
you are the reason i'm insecure. neither of us are proud of eachother.
grow up.
how can i if you won't let go?