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i have never been more unhappy in my entire life. i hate my body and my personality so much. i have truly reached my lowest low. i don't know how to help myself. i constantly feel so lost. i cant pay attention in any of my classes. i'm constantly so tired, i sleep all the time. i can never find true happiness in anything anymore. i lust for physical touch so badly. i want to rip my skin off so badly. i hate how people view me. i'm so scared of everyone else's opinions. i hate how my face looks. i hate how short my hair is now;i wish i never cut it. i used to be so beautiful and lively. i don't even recognize myself anymore. i hate what i did to myself. i ruined myself. i cut my hair and i stopped eating. i punch myself and i cry every night wishing for this to just stop. i constantly feel so numb. all i want is validation but any i do receive is never good enough. i feel so unattractive. i hate myself so much. i used to be so beautiful. my hair was so long. my eyes were so bright. i hate myself so much. i want to go back in time and change everything. i regret everything. i ruined everything. i feel like such a burden to everyone. why cant i just pass my classes? why cant i remember things? why am i always so tired? why cant i just be happy?