it's confusing.. really.. the idea of falling in love with someone who will only bring you suffering and discomfort as time goes on. you knew that you loved them, but now it feels so hurtful. the love you thought the two of you had shared is nothing but sad, dead and rotten flowers that slowly land at the bottom of your heart. you scream every morning , whisper during the day and cry every night. your brain is scattered, filled with endless possibilities involving their skin on your again, yet it brings you discomfort. you hate them. yet the idea of them running into your arms and apologizing for what they have done seems so euphoric, so mesmerizing and ego lifting. hearing a song on the radio, a song in which you and your past lover used to enjoy now just makes your chest cave in like a caldera, in which your love was the volcano. you notice that it takes more than one joke, more than one gift and more than one accomplishment to make you genuinely smile. it's frustrating. you're confused and lost. how could you ever escape this endless nightmare filled with scattered thoughts, heavy, short breaths and scratches down your fragile skin?
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Poetrysome may not make sense. appreciate my honesty and emotion. UMBRELLA TW FOR MENTIONS OF MULTIPLE THINGS! -ed -addiction -sexual assault/rape -self harm -intrusive thoughts -gore -and slight mentions of being manic • if your triggers fall under any...
