Amidst Uncertainties

Chapter 28

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cw: emotional self-abuse, social isolation. Read at your own risk.

I woke up at the sound of window opening. Iminulat ko ang mga mata ko at na-realized kong nasa hospital room ako. I roamed my eyes around my room and my gaze stopped the moment I saw someone standing near the window. He was the one who opened it.

Agad akong nasilaw sa liwanag na nagmumula sa labas. The man's back turned like a glimpse of a silhouette artwork and it was the most beautiful thing I ever saw in my entire life. But I knew that standing. I knew that posture, that built of a body. It was Sync.

Sync is here. And I don't know if I should be happy or terrified. Dahil kung narito siya ngayon, ibig sabihin lang noon ay may alam na siya sa nangyari at sa nangyayari sa aming dalawa ni Ashton. He probably knew that Ashton and I are mentally sick.

I tried to sit up on the bed, but I was too weak maybe because of lying on the bed for so long. Though I don't really know kung ilang araw na ako ritong tulog. But based on how numb I feel, I was probably lying here for a weak.

Mukhang narinig ako ni Sync na gumalaw kaya naman lumingon agad siya kung nasaan ako. His eyes lit up for a second, then they went back to being gloomy and worried. I feel my throat hurt the moment I saw him looking at me straight in the eye with such a look on his face. He's confused, worried, and scared. Yes. He's scared.

Lumapit siya sa kama kung saan ako nakahiga. Then I saw him pushed the button for the nurse call. He didn't say anything to me during that moment even until some nurses entered the room along with my father who was extremely worried.

"Hija, are you fine? How are you feeling? May masakit ba sa 'yo?" sunod-sunod na tanong ni Dad sa akin habang chine-check ng nurses na kasama niya ang vitals ko.

I smiled at him faintly as I shook my head. "I'm not hurt. I just feel numb." My voice was like a whisper, but it was enough for them to hear it.

My father sighed in relief habang tumatango. Then I watched him look at Sync. My father's eyes were suddenly filled with indifference and disgust as he was looking at Sync. My brows furrowed because of that. But then I realized, my father probably knew about us now. I just don't understand why he seemed to hate Sync so much. He looking at him as if he was someone he knew and hated all his life. Hindi naman siguro ganoong tingin ang ibibigay niya rito kung gusto niya ito for me, hindi ba? But, why, though?

Something was definitely wrong. I could feel it.

"Her chart, Doc." Ibinigay ng nurse kay Daddy iyong chart ko at umalis na rin sila pagkatapos.

My father, however, remained standing there while holding my chart. He wasn't looking at it, though. His dark eyes remained on Sync. I looked at Sync and I saw him responding to my father's gaze full of anger with his apologetic and guilty eyes.

"Dad..." I called him just to avert his attention from Sync. Agad naman akong binalingan ni Dad at lumapit sa kama ko.

"What is it, hija?" he asked.

"Can Sync and I talk for a moment?" I asked as my eyes rested on Sync. Then I looked at my father again before continuing. "In private..." My voice sounded pleading.

I saw hesitation in his eyes for a moment, but he yielded. He sighed and nodded. He looked at Sync again with threatening eyes before turning his back on us and leaving my room. I sighed in relief right after the door closed.

"I'm sorry about my father," sabi ko at lumingon kay Sync na nakatitig na sa akin ngayon. "I assumed he knew about us already by the way he was looking at you. But I didn't realize that he would take that as something bad. He looked really mad, I'm sorry. Don't worry, I'll talk to him and I'm sure he'll allow-"