I will always love you

Don't Go

JAMES' POV

I watch as Erin begins to talk to Alex. She is laughing at his jokes. She is entertaining him to the extent of letting him have her food. She doesn't even let me sip her water but here she is allowing Alex to eat out of her plate. I watch her as she leans closer to Alex and she whispers something in his ear, she lingers long enough to kiss him on his cheek. I can feel my hands tremble with anger so I clench my fist. I turn away but I can't seem to look away for long so I turn back to look at them. I am literally burning holes into Erin. Suddenly I hear

"JAMES MAY I GET YOUR PERMISSION TO TAKE ERIN OUT?!" Alex shouted.

I am shocked. I wasn't expecting that. Is that what she told him to ask me? Pain slowly spreads in my chest. I want to hold my chest but I can't. Is that why she told him to ask me? To hurt me?

"SURE DUDE. GO AHEAD!" I respond. I won't let her hurt me.

The shock is evident on her face and I turn away. I thought we had some type of connection so why does she want to go out with someone else? Am I not enough? What does he have that I don't? I just sit through lunch, I barely touch my food. After lunch I walk to the rest of my classes. I am just thinking about what Erin did do me during lunch.

I go to all my classes and after the last bell I immediately go for practice. I let out all my steam on the court and after practice I feel way better. I decide to go home, I really could use some sleep. On my way to the car I hear

"Hey James"

"Hey E, what's up?" I ask lazily

"Nothing much. Um could you give me a ride, my car won't start." She requests timidly

"Why can't Erin give you a ride?" I say annoyed even at the mention of her name

"She already left. I guess she is excited about her date. Why did Alex ask you anyway?" she asks

"She is going?" I am outraged

"She said she was." She replies

"So will you give me a ride or do I have to go ask Stacy?" She questions

"Sure hop in where do you want to go?" I ask

She gives me her address and we get into the car headed to her house. We engage in casual conversation. Erika is funny. It helps me feel more relaxed. We laugh a lot talking about embarrassing moments we witnessed during promposel season since the school dance is next week and seniors sleepover is a week after that. My mind drifts to Erin, sigh, why does she always complicate things? We get to Erika's house and I drop her off then I am off to mine. I really don't want to see Erin right now. Finally getting home I see a ready Erin in a black mini dress, white sneakers and an army green jacket putting on her earrings seated on the couch. Great she dressed up.

"I don't understand you" she says as she walks towards me.

"Oh really? What could I have possibly done that's worse than you flirting with Alex?" I say as I walk up the stairs going to my room.

"I wasn't flirting with him. Why can't you just ask? You always have to jump to conclusions?" she questions me.

"No, I am not jumping to conclusions because I literally saw you. I was hurt." I yell

ERIN'S POV

"Why would you be hurt? You hugged Natalie the minute you saw me arrive on campus" I retort

"Woooow, so you are really trying to make this all about me." He exclaims as we get into his room and I shut the door.

"You did it!" I exclaim.

"Believe it or not I legit told her to fuck off. Unlike you...you didn't even tell Alex to back off" he rolls his eyes

"The whole reason he asked you was because I told you him to, just so you could say no. Why did you say yes?" I defend

"After what I saw, you guys flirting in the cafeteria, it seemed to be obvious that you like him" he says and turns away from me.

"I was talking to him. We were having a conversation." I say frustrated.

"It didn't seem like that to me. Do you want him or me Erin? Pick one" he says and I can hear the desperation in his voice

"You are blowing this out of proportion!" I am frustrated

"Meaning?" he's annoyed

"You are reading too much into it. All we did was talk. The person at fault is you !because you said yes to him asking me out. If you really felt anything for me you would have said no." I say

"You were whispering in his ear Erin. You now I feel something for you, you drive me crazy. I lo..."

I hear the sound of birds chirping and we both know someone is at the door.

"You what?" I say stunned. Was he about to say I love you?

"That must be Alex. I guess you better go."

I walk away from him towards the door. Why didn't he just say it?

"Erin come on don't go" he says and I can hear the desperation in his voice.

"James you got us into this mess. I am going on this date. I am not bailing" I say

"Rin, don't go. Erin, don't leave things like this." he whispers in my ear as and I get shivers down my spine.

"James I have to go." I say

"Yes you can bail. Just tell him you are sick or you just got your period." He says

"Are you serious?" I chuckle.

I turn away from him and I feel his hand grip my arm. He turns me around, pins me to the wall and kisses me right there. I feel the burning desire growing in me. I jump on him and he carries me to the bed. I can feel the desire in him as well. He is sweaty and his shirt is gripping his muscles and I am getting hot and heavy.

"Yes I am. Don't go." He whispers in my ear and I realize that Alex is waiting downstairs.

"You got me into this. I am going" I say as I slip away from him and walk out of his room. He was about to use sexual activity against me. Not today.

"Fine! You can fuck him for all I care" he says as he slams the door behind me

"Fuck you James! You can gang bang Natalie and Stacey for all I care." I shout back and I hear a clash, but I am too angry to deal with him right now so I walk to the door and open it for Alex. Fuck you James. Seriously fuck you.

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So writing this chapter was difficult because I wanted to portray James in a vulnerable light but be a bad boy at the same time. Thanks to my friend Tafadzwa who made me see James in a different light. When we roll played he made James very very vulnerable. He will be helping out more often.
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