Dirty Secret (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 37

Daughter

When I was young, I’m a great fan of Disney movies and cartoons even up until today. I dreamed to have the same love stories like that of Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast, Snow White and so much more. I admired how they fought for their love endlessly and have their happy ever after.

Nasa kabila ng kagipitan at problema, hinaharap nila ito ng may determinasyon at tiwala sa sarili. Katulad ng palagi kong naririnig, walang problemang hindi naso-solusyunan. He gave us the struggles which He knows we have the ability to conquer it all.

From then, I have always believed that leaving is not a solution to whatever difficulty someone is facing. Bakit pa aalis kung kaya namang mapag-usapan?

Gayunman, kinain ko lamang ang lahat ng sinabi at pinaniwalaan ko.

"Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Los Angeles International  Airport. Our local time is 4:08 in the morning."

I was blankly staring at the window not saying anything, feeling nothing but an excruciating pain.

“On behalf of  Esguerra Pacific Airways and the entire crew. I’d like to thank you for joining us on this trip and we are looking forward to seeing you on board again in the near future. Have a nice morning everyone!”

They say time heals all the wounds. Habang lumilipas daw ang panahon, makakaahon at makakalimutan  rin ang hinagpis sa puso ng isang tao. Yung tipong gigising ka nalang isang araw, malaya ka na sa matinding paghihirap na kinahaharap mo.

Nonetheless, I'd say it doesn’t apply to everybody. It only depends on the person itself.. Dahil sa loob ng halos dalawang buwan kong pananatili dito sa Los Angeles California, walang pinagbago sa nararamdaman ko. It even worsen, feeling homesick in the four corner of this room.

Dalawang buwan na nang mapagdesisyunan kong  sumama kay tita Abigail pabalik dito sa L.A. Kasama niya dito ang pangalawang asawa na si tito William Alexander Quijano.

Simula noon, hindi pa ako lumalabas ng bahay. I don’t even have the slightest idea how the the place I currently lived in looks like. Naalala ko pa ang panahong iyon na napadpad ako dito. It was in the twenty-fourth in the month of November. The same day that everything was revealed, the same day that my parents, family despised and loathed me up until today. My parent’s never talked to me like they used to before. They treated me coldly, merely existing..

Yes, they didn’t question me about what happened that day, but just how they treat me was the worst. Mas gugustuhin ko nalang na magtanong, sigawan, o kahit saktan kaysa itong parang hindi nila ako kilala.. parang wala silang anak…

Hindi na ’rin ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataong kwestyunin ang ginawa nila sa negosyo katulad ng hindi nila pag pag-aasiwa sa kasalanang ginawa ko..

I never got the chance to bid my goodbye to Drake, as everything happened too fast. Parang sinadyang hindi ako makapagpaalam o makita man lang siya para sa huling pagkakataon.

And I miss him.. I miss my Drake.

But what can I do? Ito ang pinili kong paraan para malutasan ang gulo..

Being coward..

I also don’t know how I managed to leave the Philippines. Nang sabihin ni mommy na aalis kami—ako.. wala akong nikatiting na pagtutol. Hinayaan ko sila sa gusto nilang mangyari, nawalan na ako ng interes.

And maybe, it was because of too much emotional pain, the fear and sadness.

Sa loob din ng dalawang buwan, palagi lang akong nagkukulong sa kwarto. Lumalabas kong kakain at bumabalik din agad. But most of the time, tita will bring me foods because I was too drained to even move on my feet.