Peace
“Kinakabahan ako, Drake.” I whispered with my trembling voice.
I tucked on his shirt a bit as we gets nearer and nearer to the hotel’s restaurant where the supposed dinner will be held.
Narinig ko ang mahinang pagtawa ng kasama ko saka ko naramdaman ang init ng kaniyang palad na dumapo sa aking kamay. Drake hold my palm softy, as if scared to hurt me. Napanguso ako.
“I’m here, don’t worry. We’ll face them together.” he assured me with soothing voice before kissing the top of my head.
I bit my lower lip. Pinisil ko ang kamay niyang nakahawak sa akin habang tinatahak namin ang daan papuntang engrandeng restaurant ng hotel.
It’s been approximately five months after my confession with him. Nanatili kami sa Santa Fe ng isang buwan saka napagdesisyunang bumalik na ng Manila. We stayed in his condo and I can say.. it was the best and momentous events of my life.
Ang mabungaran siya sa tuwing ididilat ko ang mga mata sa umaga.
I don’t think I was this happy and contented. Ni hindi ko nga maalalang naging ganito ako kasaya sa nakalipas na limang taon.
May pangamba, oo.. but my affection outweigh my fears and doubts. Hindi ko na kaya pang malayo sa kaniya…
Drake is right, tama na ang limang taong pagtatago. We have enough pain, sufferings and heartaches. Sa puntong ito, pinipili ko ang sariling kasiyahan.. nakakapagod din palang magtago. Nakakapagod kalaban ang sariling puso at nararamdaman.
“They’re already there, hindi naman siguro tayo late?” he said before chuckling. Tumingin si Drake sa relong suot saka binalik ang tingin sa loob ng restaurant.
Napatingin din ako dito at tama nga siya. Kompleto na sila, mula sa salaming dingding ng maagarbong restaurant kitang kita sila, umo-o-kupa sa isang pabilog na lamesa.
My chest doubled it's pace. For a moment, I have the sudden urge to turn my back and leave seeing tita Clarries again. It has been a long while since the last time we saw each other. Huli kong naalala ay ang pagbisita nila sa lamay ni lolo na agad kong inalisan.
At ngayon, parang biglang umurong ang tapang ko.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” napakurapkurap ako ng marinig ang marahang boses ni Drake.
Hindi kami agad napapansin sa loob dahil na rin sa ilan pang costumer, nasa gilid na parte sila ng restaurant. If you wouldn’t turn your head intentionally at the entrance, it would be really impossible to notice us.
“Kinakabahan nga ako!” maluha-luha kong sambit.
I can feel my limbs crashing as I stared at tita Clarries back. Si Mommy, daddy, si tito Emmanuel and tita Clarries. Mama and my brother couldn't make it but they promised to be home next week as they had something to fix in L.A. My twin is in Texas and I'm sure Gwen is with him.
Matagal nang plano ni Drake ang sabihin sa pamilya namin ang namamagitan sa aming dalawa ngunit ako lang itong hindi pa handa and he patiently waited. He give me the time to prepare and ready myself for this meeting. Mabuti nalang talaga at naiintindihan niya ako't hindi sinukuan.
“You want to reschedule the dinner? I can cal—”
“H-Hindi, teka lang.” I hold his shirt once more as I breath in and out.
Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang matinding kaba sa maaring maging kahinatnan ng pag-uusap na ito.
Napapikit ako saka pilit na pinapakalma ang sarili. I look at Drake who is patiently waiting for my response.
CZYTASZ
Dirty Secret (COMPLETED)
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