Out of My Control [bxb]

Chapter 37

Because I just love Alex, here's another...

POV: Alex

I am visibly shaking with a chaotic amount of emotions swarming me. I'm angry, shocked, heartbroken, upset, but most of all confused.

How can someone I love, someone I thought nobody could ever compare to, do something so horrid? And to her friend of three years?

Everyone has a specific way they text.

Reid uses perfect grammar and never shortens his words, yet always uses two question marks or two exclamation marks.

Preston? Miss spells half of his words and never bothers to correct them. And uses way too many gifs to convey his emotions.

Alyssa? Almost always uses abbreviations. If she had to wright an essay using only shortened words, she can do it.

MaKenna keeps her texts short and to the point. If she has a lot to say, she'll send ten different texts instead of putting it all in one paragraph. And her favorite emoji is the smug looking smiley face.

So when Colton showed us the text messages;

Expose him😌

I want everyone

to know

I knew right away that, though it read as Alyssa's number, it was MaKenna who did the texting. Sure, maybe that's a stretch and McKenna had nothing to do with it, but I don't think I'm wrong. And knowing this kills me.

I love MaKenna. I thought MaKenna was the one and that no one had a more beautiful soul than her. I fantasized about us being together and her meeting my family for years. I was planning on making my fantasy a reality and ask her to prom. This is the girl I've wanted ever since we met. The girl who doesn't let me kill any bug because 'every life is precious'. The girl who wants to be a social worker to help kids in foster care.

And then I find out she's homophobic and is capable of doing something as disgusting as sending pictures of my friend and his boyfriend kissing to Colton Rivers? Did McKenna leave the photo in Reid's mailbox too?

I feel sick. This is wrong, this has to be wrong. "There has to be an explanation for this," I say.

We are all at Grayson's house now, sitting in his TV room. Marisa sitting on a La-Z-Boy, Jessica sitting next to Grayson. Preston's kneeling on the floor, angrily eating out of a Cheetos bag, Reid at the edge of the couch cushion, his knee bouncing up and down profusely. I know that if Grayson wasn't sitting so close to Reid and gently rubbing Reid's thigh, Reid would be in the midst of a panic attack right now.

But I couldn't sit still, instead I was pacing the room and biting my nails while thinking of a hundred excuses as to why MaKenna and Alyssa would do something like this, but none of the reasons are justified.

So Reid dated Alyssa and he is gay now. Who fucking cares! Is that really a reason to out him?

"Well, unless Alyssa was held at gun point and forced to take photos of them, I'm pretty sure the only explanation is that she's a homophobic bitch."

I cringe at Preston's harsh words. Then I almost gasp at Reid for what he says next.

"This is my fault," Reid mutters.

We all turn to him confused, but his head falls shamefully into his hands to avoid our stare.

"Baby," Grayson gently grabs Reid's hands, bringing them away from his face. "You don't honestly believe that, do you?"