My Book Of Poems

Fake Smile

I put it on paper.
On paper with pen.
Writing these feelings down.
To hide the darkness within.

Though it almost never helps.
And no one seems care.
As I silently scream and yell.
This world isn't fucking fair!

I'm lost in my own mind!
Conjuring up nightmares.
My eyes are clearly blind.
I can't breath this damn air.

Putting a blade to my wrist.
Trying to stop the pain.
I clench my hand into a fist.
And I punch the wall again!

It bares stains blood red.
My knuckles start to bleed.
And the tears I start to shed.
The blood drips to my feet.

I drop to my knees.
I can barely see.
I can barely believe.
What my life has turned to be.

Intoxicated with madness.
Insane thoughts in my brain.
Eyes soaked with sadness.
Society is the one to blame.

It choked me with its insults.
It kicked the life out of me.
Pointing out my faults.
How shitty can it really be?!

I won't let it control me.
I know I can't die.
Although you get me close.
I know I can't say goodbye.

I have to stay here for you.
And for you and you.
I go though all this pain just fucking for you.

But everyone has hardships right?
It gets better right?
Yeah I'll just believe that,
And put in a fake smile tonight

Credit: Shane Matthews