Forever. | Mitsuya Takashi [Tokyo Revengers]

chapter twenty two; future

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                  He turned to look at you. "Y/N? Why'd you wake up? Was I being too loud?" He was serving the plates of fried rice. You immediately shook your head and he nodded in reply. "Are you feeling unwell, then?" He continued asking as he picked up Mana and placed her down on the table. "I'm fine. I think I was just overwhelmed." You slowly approached him whilst Luna hurried herself. "With what? Is there something wrong?" He asked with concern shown in his eyes. Genuine concern. Eyebrows furrowed, his fingers rested. "I'm fine I think. For now." You sat down beside him, preparing to eat the meal. "Alright then. If there's anything you want to talk about, I'm always here." He reassured, his warm hands slowly placed itself above yours.

Even with just a touch, that warmth spreaded throughout your body within a blink. He started eating, and so did others. You were hesitant, the heavy block in your throat is just not doing the best job at allowing you have a normal appetite. Not that its an eating disorder, just the fact that you can't eat without feeling guilty. "Are you alright? Eat up. I made your favourite." You nodded. You were still hesitant, holding yourself back from shaking. Do I deserve to eat this? What if I gain weight? No. People wouldn't like me. My side profile is too wide. It's not ideal. I don't like it. Others won't either. I don't want to eat. I can't eat. I shouldn't.

"Y/N, stop eating too much! Dinner is over, you're only going to get fatter this way!" You still remember your father's word vividly. "You're a girl. Control your diet." Right. I'm a girl, right? I should hold myself back from eating too much. "Are you sure that's healthy? I would eat that only twice a week." Oh, yeah! Fried rice is too oily. I can't eat that! I shouldn't! After all, you don't deserve it. All you did was annoy him and trouble him. Takashi wanted space, and you knew that, right? Why didn't you resist yourself? Why? Why are you so clingy? Can you stop? You can't do this. You shouldn't.

              "Hello? Y/N? You haven't touched your food." He waved. "I'm sorry, I just don't feel hungry yet. I'll head home first." You got up but was immediately stopped by him. His strong grip around your lanky wrist. "I know your tactics, y/n. Sit down." You gulped guiltily, sitting beside him. "What tactic, brother?" Luna asked, Mana nodding. "Oh, for a game that has something to do with eating!" He laughed, trying to avoid the subject. He scooped up a small portion of the fried rice and placed the spoon upon your mouth. "Chuuu~" He made train noises, clearly to entertain the kids. You smiled before taking a bite of the spoon. He pat your head softly, saying "Good girl!" on repeat, knowing it's one of your favourite affirmations.

               "I want to play too!" Luna crossed her arm in jealousy, making you giggle. "Then why not you feed Mana? Mana, you take turns with Luna." He suggested. He was so good with kids. You know you yourself wouldn't be able to do the same. "Alright. Open up!" Another spoon. It kept going for a while, to the point you actually finished your meal. "There you go, good girl." He wiped the excess oil off your face, smiling as he did so. You smiled back in response. You ended up washing all the dishes, leaving no stains at all. "So, exams tomorrow huh?" He asked from behind you, his body caving you in warmth and his hands lurking around your waist. You sighed. Exams, huh?

"I guess so. Did you study?" You asked him softly, drying your hands. His fingers slowly moved your hair aside, revealing your neck to him. You felt his breath touching your cold skin. "Yeah, you?" He said before his lips slowly started smooching down your neck. "A little- Takashi that tickles." You stopped him, stuttering between your sentences and breath hitching as you spoke. "Hmm, that's not good. You should study, y/n. Don't you want to get into an art school? If not, then we'd be separated, no?" He said with a pout. "Of course I do. But we already are, Takashi. You're a year ahead of me." You placed your hands over his.

"I'll miss you. A lot." Mitsuya pressed his forehead against your back. "I'll miss you too. But hey, at least you'll get to do what you like!" You tried to be optimistic, only to turn and look at his saddened expression. "We'll get to see each other when we're both free. No worries, right?" You tried to cheer him up, you really tried to. "But it's not everyday that we get to see each other." He looked away with a certain look on his face- not a happy one it seemed. "We'll both get used to it." You played with his hair, back pressed against the kitchen counter. "I don't want to get used to that." He buried himself into your chest. "We can't do anything about it, Takashi. Don't you find someone else, though."

Or do, I don't know. Nothing lasts.

"Even if you do, I don't really mind. I can't keep you to myself forever. There will be others in our way." He buried himself deeper. "Shut up. Keep me to yourself, forever. I want to be with you forever." He said, words going right into your chest. But literally- he is facing your chest. You chuckled and hugged his head, burying himself deeper. "That's so cheesy, oh my gosh." You laughed. "Why are you not taking this seriously?!" He asked seriously despite having an adorable expression on his face.

"Alright, alright." You nodded. "Next year, study for me. Make it so we can meet each other again, normally. Frequently. Like we always did." He removed himself from your hold, standing tall in front of you. "I will." You smiled, assuring him. "God, I'm so glad we share the same interests." He pulled you in for a deep hug, now you're buried all in his chest. "We'd be separated longer if I was into maths." You laughed, muffled. "I don't like maths." He said, hand still holding you tightly. "Me either." You hugged him back, feeling his heart beat louder and faster.

"Stop, you're making me wish I spent more time with you."

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