boss 2 •• nct lucas

f o u r t y - f o u r

kim baram

she place her head on top of her folded arms on the table. everyday keeps getting worse and worse, the mixed feelings all of them gave, the shocking questions, sudden appearance, everything. yesterday was just another mess.

but the most confusing thing for her was her own feelings.

she never asked herself which heart stayed in hers.

jaehyun was a total no; it wasn't because she didn't like him, she do, but, she cannot think about ruin what he's parents have already set for him even though it was all arranged.

she didn't want to break his heart twice.

but it was all an arranged marriage after all, maybe baram could snatch him away from his fiance...

but to think about the karma makes baram shivers and shook her head as the images of worst scenario happens to her.

another long sigh went past her lips as her thumb gliding across her phone screen and a picture of her and johnny appears in front of her eyes.

it was back when she's in the states.

about johnny..

she do miss johnny and it's been a long time since she's have the time to chat with him.

he do have his main job in the city and barely come to the studio, he'll come when baram have a big project, such as making jaehyun's fiancee's wedding dress.

and come to think again, she's in a bad term with johnny because of jaehyun.

she cannot blame johnny for hating her thou, she hated what she did back then, until now, she cannot forgive herself to what happen and who she hurted on the way.

johnny was a good friend, he really helped her a lot and went through serious phase back at the state when she went to college.

he really give her a good experience and happy memories. she couldn't be more grateful to meet someone like him. 

"ugh.. all these thoughts are making me crazy!" she yelled to herself before, leaning her back against the chair and then set her eyes on the mannequin that she's been working on.

irene's wedding dress.

jaehyun is going to be married soon. she suddenly imagined how she was the one who wore that dress, she make it herself and wear it on the day she said i do.

baram imagined herself walking down the isle with bouquet of flowers wrapped around her hands as a veil covering her face and standing before the man in front of her.

wouldn't that be nice to imagine things?

but that won't happen now right? jaehyun is marrying a perfect woman that suits him very well and cherishes him like baram never could.

baram shook her head, running her hands across her face before standing up and finishing what she had to finish.

in three days, irene will be here to try the dress she's been making and so as jaehyun.

baram thought that if her relationship with lucas was already fine, she thought that she could get rid of jaehyun out of her head, but the truth is.. she can't.

jaehyun sure helped her went through a lot of things that she could probably dead by now back then.

just when she was busy with her things, the door of her studio opens that make her turn around to see jungwoo walk inside the studio with hands full of food.

"just what i needed." baram said and place her pins back to its container.

jungwoo took out the food he brought with a smile and slide some of the food that baram love, stir fried kimchi.

"gosh, slow down lady," jungwoo said when baram quickly dig into her food and not a single word left from her full mouth, "no one will snatch your food away."

baram smiled, slowly chewing her food before staring back at her brother.

"i didn't notice how time fly so fast, must've caught up with what i'm working." baram said after drinking the tea that jungwoo had bought.

"is true?" jungwoo asked, getting baram's attention, "that jaehyun hyung will get married?"

baram let out a long sigh, "i guess he is."

that was the only thing that baram could give jungwoo as an answer.

"lucas went to see me the other day." jungwoo said that make baram choke on her drink. she looked at jungwoo with big eyes and question look all over her face.

"what do you mean?" baram asked, placing down her drink.

jungwoo nodded his head, "well.. he sort of asked from my blessing and he told me that he already proposed to you.." jungwoo said and baram notice the worried tone lingered on his words.

"i'm sorry if i'm being a bad brother for you but after what he did to you, i still--or maybe i won't even forgive him." he continued.

baram cannot lie, there's a little sting in her heart when she heard what jungwoo had say.

there won't be any blessing from him.

"i get it, but jungwoo..."

"don't tell me that you're in love with him noona.. are you?" jungwoo said, his voice went high a little that took baram a little bit off guard.

"as much as i hate to say this and disappoint you, i think i am." baram said and saw the disappointed look plastered  across jungwoo's face.

"p-please jungwoo, you're the only person i have in my life and i love you so much that i would do anything for you... but please, not my love life, okay?" baram said as she took jungwoo's fisted hands into hers and make a little stroke.

"you may not approve it right now but trust me, besides that i like him.. he would do anything to pay for what he has done to us."

jungwoo stared at his sister eyes and baram sees how soften his face muscles are.

could this be a hint that jungwoo finally agrees to what his sister words? could this be a hint that jungwoo finally gave in?

sometimes baram notice how hard could it be to read jungwoo's facial expression.

"i'm going to give him one chance... one chance to prove that he's the right man for you noona."

baram sigh in relieve. jungwoo finally gave in and she couldn't lie how happy she is right now.

baram mumble a small thankyou before parting her eyes towards the door.

baram couldn't believe her eyes. he stood there outside her studio, still looking handsome with those black shirt and white trousers that sure make him even more taller.

not long after, jungwoo followed to where her eyes are settled and raise his brows,

"oh--jaehyun hyung?"

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im sorry it took me too long to update. because there's a lot of things going on in my life... HAHA kind of sucks where i lost my job because i have small bitch fight with my manager

and i have to find another decent job before i move out from my house.

but the good news is that im finally experiencing living alone!

HAHAH enough of my shit. anyway, enjoy reading you guys.

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