“Forgive others as quickly as you expect Allah to forgive you.” -Anonymous
Amira Sultan p.o.v
" What is wrong with me? " I pace from one place to another .
" Why am I feeling restless? " My chest felt so heavy since the time I told Khalid those harshful words .
and you don't deserve anyone's love and that's why your own mother doesn't love you "
Closing my eyes tightly I sat on the edge of the bed .
But his broken face flashed in front of my eyes .
" Oh my Allah '' I stood up and almost felt like crying .
This is the reason I don't say hurtful words to people; it always backfires on me .
"But he raised questions about my character" I defended myself .
But that doesn't give me the right to hurt anyone's hearts , my subconscious said .
" Well he doesn't have a heart, " I argued, turning around .
How do you know ?
" I do , he questioned my chastity " I gritted out .
" That too without any proof " I was fuming in anger .
Is it you talking or shaitan
This thought immediately made me calm .
" But -" I tried to justify myself but I stopped .
He misunderstood you …
He is a human being named Amira ..
His men said there was a man
What was he supposed to do ?
" Trust me !" I said out loud to myself .
It's like my mind was divided into two .
Does he know you
" No he doesn't but it's his fault " I cried like I would go mad from my internal battle .
"Oh Allah " I hold my hand feeling exhausted .
Just then I remembered the teaching of Our beloved Prophet (Peace be upon him) said: “Whoever suffers an injury and forgives (the person responsible), Allah will raise his status to a higher degree and remove one of his sins.”
I quickly felt guilty " I shouldn't have said those words to him no matter what " I cried feeling broken .
" So what if he said bad things about me , if I behave like him then what will be the difference between us? " I felt ashamed .
" He will be answerable to his sin and I will be answerable to mine " I tried to make myself understand .
" This is not what Allah s.w.t. wants , I am Allah s.w.t servant , I cannot behave like this "
" I need to rectify my mistake " I wiped my tears with determination .
Quickly wiping my tears I did my wudu and prayed two rakat for forgiveness .
Standing up I thought to apologise to Khalid as well though little part of me didn't wanted to but then again I am doing this to save my akhirah I mean just imagine you will end up in hell just because you broke someone heart with hurtful words I mean no person in this world is that worthy that we ruin our akhirah for someone .
Nope I won't let this happen to myself . I will apologise and end this topic for my mental peace.
I stood in front of his door " come on Amira you can do this " I encouraged myself .
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