Wilbur Soot tossed and turned in his sheets unable to sleep.
The usual sound of piano playing from his neighbor were nonexistent. The only sounds around him were sounds of wind blowing trees causing branches to hit his window repeatedly, pitter-patter of rain hitting the windowsill, and rustling of the fallen winter leaves.....
Wilbur was hit with the feeling of deja vu.
Laying in bed, unable to sleep..
Except this time there was a reason why he was tossing and turning, unable to finally drift away to sleep.
Her.
It feels like he's drowning; But he isn't even in water.
His chest feels tight.
It hurts his mind thinking about the same thing, the same person for so long, all the time, it just slowly breaks...No... Shatters him.
It's like something is tearing him apart piece by piece.
.
Philza
Hey Phil?
hey mate! ive been trying to get ahold of you for the past couple days!! where have you been? is everything alright?
Not exactly
Can we talk please?
oh shit.
of course, what has been going on?
It's about Elaine
oh no.
.
Elaine isn't doing any better.
She's feeling the feeling of Guilt.
You know Guilt, right? Guilt is that suffocating, heavy feeling in your chest.
Guilt is not being able to concentrate on the task at hand because you know you hurt their feelings.
Guilt is that incessant throb in your heart, telling you you should apologize for being so callous. It might or might not stop after the apology.
Guilt is feeling bad, knowing you did the wrong thing even though you knew what was right.. Or was it right?
Guilt sometimes pairs with Shame.
Shame digs up the past and throws it in your face. It reminds you of all the times you fucked up. Including now.
Guilt makes you cry, and wish you could've done better, and you think you can, next time. If there is a next time. Maybe. You don't know.
Guilt can be your friend because it makes you want to be better.... Now if you can only find Resolve.
Elaine is far from finding Resolve.
Guilt and Shame are like the angel and devil that lie on your shoulders.
Only they're both that little red fuck.
Guilt and Shame decide to whisper things to Elaine.
Some really fucked up things.
Elaine is filled with only Guilt and Shame.
No matter how many times she's tried to push that feeling away... It always comes crawling back.
Elaine needs to talk to someone, to rant to someone.
She needs that heaviness off her chest.
.
Tommy
hey tommy?
elaine? why the fuck are you up at 3 am?
I could ask the same thing to you
touche
whats up?
wilbur
oh fuck, what did that idiot do because i swear to god
no no, it wasnt him, im the one that messed up
elaine
for a grown woman, you can be a complete moron
yk that?
yeah i do
no comeback????
oh god
just how bad did you fuck up?
like really bad
like i wanna dig myself a grave and just kinda lie there
WHAT DID U DO
we kissed
WHAT RGE FUCK??
AND NOBODY TOLD ME??
H
OLW IS THJIS BAD?
we kissed
but then I rejected him..
I thought this is somrthing I'm emotionally and mentally prepared for, but now I'm just uncertain
god this is so sad, im ranting to a child
elaine.
..just
why?
you two so clearly have feelings for eachother??
you would literally fucking rant to me about him all the fucking time??
i thought you did like him?
what the fuck??
why the fuck??
when the fuck??
look I'm sorry for spamming you but I'm just trying to piece this all together?
no, dont get me wrong..
i do have feelings for him, tommy
like really fucking bad
THEN WHY?
its just all so terrifying
you fuckin pussy.
and to think i was calling wilbur the pussy for not asking you out in the first place.
elaine i dont wanna get in between you and his stupid highschool drama and shit and i mean this in the nicest way possible but i have to say you are a fucking idiot
a complete idiot
a fool
do you know how much he likes you? i can only imagine how how much you like him in return, and you throw it all away because of fear???
you two put so much into your relationship
i saw the way you two looked at each other, just by how you look each other you can tell you have feelings for each other.
Yet you threw it all away?
over fear?
do you know how wasteful that is?
...youre fuckin kidding
i did mess up
i did the thing i was trying NOT to do
i have to speak to him
jesus christ man
I love you and all but, yeah you fuckin do.
tell me how it goes afterwards
you whores never tell me shit
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𝐏𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐎 𝐊𝐄𝐘𝐒 || wilbur soot
Fanfictionevery night, enchanting piano melodies emanate from wilbur's flat neighbor, he falls asleep to the sound of their exquisite playing every night and there is always that one notion that consumes his brain every time, "who created such pieces?" that...
