Separated

Chapter 45- its just a heart

      Do you ever just wake up and not wanna be awake? Like your whole body can't move and your so exhausted even though you just slept I slowly open my eyes and I'm glad I remembered to close my curtains last night

   I lay there for a minute before making myself sit up and drag myself to my bathroom turning on the shower I decide to have a cold one I take off my cloths and trace the small scar on my stomach from when Alec cut my dress of me I shiver at the thought and look over the rest of my body I have a scar down my arm from being thrown off my hourse and some scrapes on my knees I step into the shower and the cold watter hits me I arch my body away from it at first before letting in consume me I look to the floor and feel the heat around my eyes as they fill with tears I miss Robin so much I hold my head in my hands as I sob I don't know how to deal with this pain it's like a never ending hit right in the gut it's like my hearts been ripped out

   I suddenly pause as an idea comes to my head of course my heart I could take it out? I think I can just put in one of moms boxes in her vault she won't notice...

    I hop out of the shower quickly and grab my cloths and my house key making my way down stairs wiping my tears I walk past mom and she looks to me confused "Charlotte we're are you going" I open the door "out I'll be back in ten!" I slam the door behind me and magic myself there not bothering the walk

   when I open my eyes I'm in moms vault I walk over to her wall of boxes and carefully grab one and open it my hands shake slightly as I slowly bring one up to my chest this shouldn't be to hard I'll do it quick and then the pain will be less

     I take a deep breath before plunging my hand into my chest I gasp in pain and quickly pull it out and it feels as though half of me had been pulled away put the pains been numbed I look down to the glowing red heart in shock becuse my hearts in my hands but more so becuse it's all red there's no darkness I though there would be my eyes tear up and I put it in the box closing it and putting it's back to its original spot

    I quickly leave moms vault and start to walk home it's weird not having my heart in my body it's like a part of me is missing but I'm still there it's like taking Medicine it helps the pain but only for a little bit

     I open the door to the house and walk into the kitchen to see mom cutting up some apples when she sees me she sighs and sets down her knife walking over to me and pulling me in a hug "you can't just leave and say your going out when I ask were your going" I shrug "I told you ide be back and I am it's no big deal" she glares at me slightly "don't think this is going without punishment no tv for a week"

     I roll my eyes "that's fine with me I've been through a hell of a lot worse" I storm upstairs and slamb my door behind me slumping onto my bed. god now I'm angrey I didn't mean to lash out on mom but it's true taking away tv is not gonna change anything

    I grab my bow and head back downstairs again and toreds the door when mom stops me "why would you think you would get to leave the house after what you just pulled" I shrug "I don't know because I want too?" mom gives me a look saying she's done "we're are you going?" I shrug "anywhere but here"

     I shove her out of my way and open the door but I feel a sort of force around me and my bow falls from my hands as mom stops me with her magic and rises me into the air I glare at her "wow now we both look like our mothers" her face falls and she puts me down keeping her gaze to the floor she mumbles one word "go"

   I look to her confused for a second feeling. Pnag of guilt but I turn airund and step outside I grab on if my arrows and shoot at a tree in atempt to get out some stress but I miss. I stop in my tracks when I see the arrow roll into the street and a car drive over it my heart drops that was one of robins arrows