Her Worst Contract (LOA 2 #2)

CHAPTER 27

I wake up with a cold breeze of air from the open window here inside my room. I slowly opened my eyes and the first thing I felt was the pain in my in between.

My whole body is aching, as I slowly sit in the bed. I saw myself through the mirror near my bed. I'm already wearing a nightdress but the redness of my arms and wrist are very visible in my white skin.

Agad kong naalala ang nangyari kagabi, at mabilis itong naghatid ng matinding kirot sa aking dibdib. Hindi ko kilala ang lalaking kasama ko kagabi. That's not Vlad, that I know.

Or maybe, hindi ko na talaga kilala ang Vlad na minahal ko noon. He changed, umaasa pa ako na baka nandyan lang nakatago lang ang Vlad na minahal ko pero ibang-iba na siya ngayon. He's out of control, he's out of my control.

And it's hurting me already.

Napalingon ako sa pinto ng bumukas ito at pumasok si Vlad na may dalang isang baso ng tubig. I instantly avoided his gaze and look at the window of my room.

I can't look at him right now, after what happened last night. I don't think I can talk to him for now.

"Rabbit, have some water," malumanay at puno ng pagsisisi ang boses nitong sambit. Pero hindi ako kumibo at humiga muli sa kama. I cover myself using the comforter and ignore him.

"Rabbit, I'm sorry, I was drunk and I didn't control myself last night. Prime just fucking piss—--," I cut him off before he could finish his nonsense words again.

"I want to sleep, can you leave." mahina kong sambit bago mas isiniksik ang aking sarili sa gilid ng kama papalayo sa kinatatayuan niya.

"Ellouise, don't be like this, I'm sorry," he was about to get in the bed, but I stopped him. "I said, I want to sleep Vlad, can you just give this to me," I said using the cold tone of my voice and remained silent. Pinakiramdaman ko lamang ito at, sinunod niya naman ang sinabi ko.

I heard him let out a heavy sigh before and his foot stepped out of the room. Pagkasara ng pinto, dahan-dahan akong gumalaw upang silipin ito at nag masiguro kong wala talaga siya dito sa loob.

Tumingin ako sa ceiling ng kwarto at itinaas ang aking kamay, na tila inaabot ang linawang mula sa chandelier. I look into my wrist, namumula ito at bakas na bakas ang mahigpit na pagkakahawak ni Vlad sa aking kamay kagabi.

Huminga ako ng malalim at ipinatong ang aking braso sa aking noo, I close my eyes and tried to forget what happened last night. Lahat iyon ay isang masamang panaginip lamang.

Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog ako muli habang patuloy na nagmumuni-muni, nagising na lamang ako sa mga halik ni Vlad sa aking noo. When I realize that he's laying beside me, kissing my forehead, I instantly move away and step out of the bed.

"I need to go to the bathroom," I whisper at iniwan ko siya na mag-isa doon, mabilis na naglakad patungo sa banyo kahit na kumikirot pa 'rin ang ibabang bahagi ng aking katawan.

I lock myself inside the bathroom for an hour, nagtagal ako sa loob nito na nakahiga sa bathtub. Iminulat ko na lamang ang aking mga mata ng marinig ang marahan na pagkatok ni Vlad sa pinto ng banyo.

"Ellouise, you have to eat, come on, you've already stayed there for a while. I know you're avoiding me," he whispers while he slowly knocks on the door.

Nanatili ako sa aking pwesto at patuloy na pinakikinggan ang susunod niyang sasabihin. Wala pa 'rin akong balak lumabas kung kaya't ipinikit ko muli ang aking mga mata.

"Rabbit, I'm sorry, please let's talk." kapos hininga nitong sambit, "You haven't eaten anything since yesterday."

Nanatili akong walang imik, "Ellouise, if you're not going to answer me, I have to open the door." bakas na sa boses nito na nauubusan na siya ng pasensya kakasuyo sa akin kung kaya't dahan-dahan na akong tumayo mula sa bathtub at inabot ang towel sa sink.