Her Worst Contract (LOA 2 #2)

CHAPTER 38

Few days of taping had passed by and the shooting started well. Madalang pang ishoot ang mga scene na kasama ko si Vlad kaya hindi naging mahirap para sa akin ang lahat.

And within those few days, I have been avoiding him off cam. He always tries to give me food, drinks, and some sort of treats that I could eat while we're on the set. But, I choose not to eat any of those.

I just don't feel like eating any of it. Because every time I look at him, the pain of losing my child keeps going back inside my chest. Lagi akong inaatake ng hika tuwing nakikita siya, my anxiety keeps coming back whenever I speak a word with him, hear his voice, and stared at those dark and painful eyes.

"Oh ang lungkot na naman ang mga mata mo," natigilan ako sa pag-iisip ng magsalita si Julian sa aking harapan habang inaayos nito ang aking buhok.

Napatingin ako sa repleksyon ko mula sa salamin sa aking harapan, at habang pinagmamasdan ang aking sarili, isang makirot na pagpiga sa aking puso ang aking naramdaman.

"Ang ganda-ganda mo ngayon tapos ang lungkot ng mga mata mo, cheer up girl," he said, but I just can't hold the pain, now that I'm seeing myself wearing a white beautiful wedding gown, makes me suffer with heavy chest.

"I don't want to do this," I uttered without even thinking, bigla na lang itong lumabas sa aking isipan, dahila upang tumigil si Julian sa pagkulot ng aking buhok at nagbuntong hininga.

He smile at me through the reflection of the mirror and held both of my shoulder, lean closer to my face. "Kaya mo ito, kinaya mo nga ng ilang taon pano pa kaya ngayon, wag mong hayaan kainin ng nakaraan ang lahat ng pinaghirapan mo. Kakayanin mo ito," malumanay niyang sambit at tinapik ang aking balikat bago itinuloy ang pag-aayos ng aking buhok.

I gaze at myself and slowly look down at my palm, it was not shaking this time but I could feel the numbness in the nerves of my palm, it was a different feeling from what I'm experiencing these past few days.

"Ready na ba si Kacey?" napatingin kaming dalawa ni Julian sa aming likuran ng sumilip sa tent si Harvin na dala ang aking scripts. "Malapit na," Julian cheerfully said, Harvin nodded and walk towards me.

"Ito yung lines mo, medyo mahaba ang vows, you should read it." he said, handed me the papers and hurriedly step outside of the tent. Dahan-dahan kong itinuon ang aking atensyon sa script na nasa aking kamay ngayon.

Sinubukan ko itong basahin at sauladuhin. The whiskers of every word inside this paper just instantly hit my heart in the most painful way. Every word just feels so right for the sorrow I've been through. How would I be able to perform this later without being affected? How?

"Guys start na tayo!!!" narinig ko ang malakas na sigaw ni Harley sa labas, she's calling everyone for already. "Done! You lovely as ever just like your mother!!!" sambit ni Julian at inalalayan ako sa pag tayo at inayos ang dulo ng suot kong wedding gun.

"Huminga ka ng malalim, kaya mo ito, ikaw pa ba." he said, cupping my face and finching my cheeks to force me to smile. "Ayan oh, sobrang ganda," I really appreciate Julian, ever since I came back he always makes me feel calm, well appreciated. He never fails to boost my confidence.

But this time, kahit anong lift up ko sa aking sarili alam kong puno pa 'rin ako ng takot at kaba para sa scene na ito. "Thank you for everything Julian," he hugged me before him and Dolce help me with my gown as I step out of the tent.

I stop walking when I saw Vlad outside the tent, kakalabas niya lang 'rin mula sa tent niya, he's wearing a white tuxedo, lahat ng tattoo niya ay tinakpan ng make up, dahil doon biglang sumikip ang aking dibdib.