Elysium

VIII

Hell, that is my life in one word.

I'm the king now and to get to that position I sacrificed a lot of things, the first being my childhood, I don't remember having a moment where I was happy as a kid, I was always training, I was only four when it all started, I didn't understand what or why I'm doing this and I didn't dare to question it afraid of the consequences, I also sacrifice my happiness, I sacrificed a lot of things but these two are the most important things to me.

Things I will never be able to get them back.

I grow up to be this monster I'm today, I lost the good that was in me, I lost it all, my parents tried to replace all my bad memories but you can't fix what is broken.

I do like being the king, I'm enjoying it, I have control of everyone, I'm feared by everyone, and no one would dare to disrespect me, they know that their fate would be worst than their nightmares.

I crave power, I would do anything to have it, I have nothing left to sacrifice anyways, they took everything away.

that is what the world made me a heartless monster.

They even forced me to marry her, I don't understand them, they kept forcing me this whole time just to have me now controlling them? What did they gain?

She didn't deserve this suffering, she is too young for this, she doesn't deserve to live with a monster like me, but I can't let her go, ever since our wedding day, I can't get her out of my mind, her innocence is driving me crazy, the way she cares for other people more than herself, she only sees good in people, she even thinks I'm good, watching her became my new obsession.

I'm memorizing every small move she made, the way she pouts when she is confused, the way she smiles when seeing her favorite food, chocolate cake, and mango juice, I notice everything about her.

She makes me feel things I've never felt, no woman has ever made me feel like this, and I hate it! I hate it so much, I even hated her for not leaving my mind, because of her I can't focus on my work anymore.

I'm trying to push her away to make her hate me and I succeeded she said that she hated me last week and since then she has been avoiding me, it hurts, I never thought I would be able to have that feeling Over a woman but here I'm.

I'm doing this for her own good, if I don't she will end up hurt because of me, I ruin everything I lay eyes on, and I put too many people in danger since my birth starting with my family, I can't put her in that position.

She is too good for this world, being born into the mafia is a curse but hers is worst than most people.

It pains me to be rude to her or to see the tears that are caused by me, hearing her cry every night because of this marriage makes me want to bring the person responsible for this and kill him all over again.