Elysium

XVIII

                    This morning like any other morning since my family came I spent it with Bianca, everyone has work to do so I was left alone, well so I don't make them bad, to be honest, they invited me to stay with them but I refused cause I know it's going to be boring.

Staying with Bianca is way better, she is a good company, I made the right decision when I choose her as my lady, she always finds a way to change my mood by telling me a story or how things work in the castle.

We haven't spoken about that box or the room again even tho it's been a week, although we spoke about Livy and Ares, well they are becoming our usual talk and I don't know why they are appearing in everything, yes what Reign said makes sense but them being in literally everything is a bit weird.

I feel like they have a huge amount of secrets that need to be found out, cause everything in this castle belongs to them even tho a lot of generations lived here after them, it's weird really but I'm willing to find out what it is.

Well of course with Bianca's help, she seems to know a lot of things about them but the problem is she is hiding something, I don't want to force her to tell me about it but I want to find out.

I haven't talked with Alex this whole week, he tried to multiple times but I ignored him, I feel bad because I'm mad at him for being happy, but I'm jealous, I admit it, he doesn't show me any affection anymore and always only taking care of his wife, he even gave her my ring and that is annoying.

Even Eliza tried to talk with me the other day but I told her that I'm busy and maybe another time, I feel horrible about it but I don't feel like talking with them.

All my other brothers are alright and are giving me maybe more than enough of their attention.

God, I sound like a desperate person for attention but I'm not I just miss them and want to stay with them as much as possible that is all.

I don't sleep in Reign's room anymore, I always spend the night with my father in my room watching tv together till we fall asleep, Reign isn't happy about it but he didn't say anything, he only shows his dislike through his expression but whatever I'm living with him here while my father will be away from me for a long time.

Reign sometimes tries to still some kisses when we are alone, sometimes he won and others he fails, I ran away from him, so each day is a game for us now, one of us has to lose, I don't lose tho I always win cause if he doesn't succeed it shows that I won and he does I like the feeling of his kisses and all of him.

I like this Reign so much more than the Reign I meet when we first got married, he isn't rude anymore and now we talk and not just argue, and of course not to forget that he's been spoiling me with gifts and candy.

He doesn't show it in front of people tho, though yes he isn't rude, he doesn't smile or show any affection to me like when we are alone.

But his hair is cute either way!