Your Love is My Burden

I Can't See You Yet

I can't leave him... can I? I sighed to myself, sitting on the soft ground of the forest, the night drawing a sound out of the crickets around, watching the knight sleep peacefully. I didn't know he slept. The first few nights he was with me, he never showed any type of exhaustion. He was always awake and very aware. I always felt uneasy when he was in my quarters. He never slept. He just sat there on the other side of the room, watching. He said nothing at all. He was silent until now. I wonder... why he decide to talk now of all times? I, The Princess of Hyrule, commanded him to talk many times and yet, my trying was worthless and instead he responded to some spirit who could be evil or good. He thinks less of me... just like my father. I stand up slowly wanting to leave but I couldn't. What if... something happens? I don't care... do I? I sighed, sitting back down, feeling kinda faint. I haven't eaten anything. He always cooks. He's quite good at it. I wonder why he didn't decide to be one of the kingdom's chefs. He would've been famous but he decided to put up with me instead. How boring. I gently shook him slightly, trying to get him to stir. Nothing.

"Please wake up." I said softly to no one in particular. I hated being alone yet I thought I would find peace in it. The woods were so dark and I didn't have anyone to protect me. He was still fast asleep without a care in the world. So this is what it feels like? Does he feel this way when I'm asleep? This is truly horrifying. I moved my hands to my arms, desperate to find some sort of warmth. I was freezing and had no fire whatsoever. He does... everything. I was relying... on him this whole time... and now he's... gone. I laid down in the grass, shivering a bit, continuing to watch him sleep soundly. He was so peaceful in everything he did. His actions were just and he always knew what he was doing, he didn't force me to do anything, he followed me around even though he should've dragged me back. He cares... he really does. I tried so hard to stay awake that night but sleep slowly overtook me too, drifting off as Link had. There was no fear, just peace. For the first time, I wasn't worried about tomorrow and I wasn't going to try and fight him anymore if I could. It's not his fault. Tomorrow is another day. He will open up to me eventually and I to him.

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The sun rose the next morning, warming the forest with a summer breeze. This place was truly beautiful yet hid its beauty in many different ways. I moved my hand to rub the sleep from my eyes but found that it was caught by something. I froze, fear threatening to take over my actions. What's... going on? I tried to move my hand again and sure enough, it was caught by something. I didn't know what but my hand wasn't going anywhere. I was laying on my side and I knew that my other hand was stuck underneath me but I was definitely still in the forest. The birds were chirping and the sun was smiling. I slowly opened my eyes to only see him. He was still sleeping, his hand in mine. I felt my heart drop, unsure what to do. Did he do this or did I? He's still sleeping. Should I wake him up? He breathed somewhat loudly, stirring just a bit, shifting a little. My heart was pounding out of my chest. What if he woke up and saw this? Would he be angry? Would he care? He groaned in his sleep quietly, pulling his hand towards himself but stopped, noticing that his hand was caught by something. What do I do?! Think! His eyes slowly fluttered open to make contact with mine, staring at me blankly as he always did, his eyes wandering to our hands. For the first time, he actually showed some expression besides slight changes in his face. He expressed confusion, fear, worry, and seemed very unsure about the whole thing. It was as if I watched his whole face light up. He had emotions but he hid them behind a wall so high, I couldn't even reach the top but now... I have. I see you. You're here. He slowly moved his hand out of mine, some color showing on his face, seeming very unsure. I laughed at him a bit, happy that he finally showed something besides the wall that he had put up for such a long time. He got up slowly, stretching a bit before holding out his hand to take mine. I wasn't mad at him anymore. He was a person and he demonstrated that to me in that moment. I smiled, taking his hand gently, letting him pull me up carefully. He went blank again as soon as I was upright. No... don't go.

"Why do you..." He looked at me, wondering what I was about to say though I was only thinking out loud. I wanted to ask him but felt as though it was not the right time. He seemed focused on an entirely different matter that I was unaware of. He's so distant. He walked forward towards the sword as I had done yesterday. I wanted to stop him and ask him all about himself but didn't, watching him pass the invisible wall that I was unable to. That's so strange. I followed after him. Something was happening and I could see it on his face. He was distant... more than before. I also passed through the invisible barrier. Fi was not guarding the sword anymore... Why? Link made his way up to the pedestal, stopping in front of the sword, staring at it, reaching his hands out for it. No. The legend... it will kill him. I ran after him as fast as I could. If the stories I've read were true. The one chosen by the Master Sword would be able to wield the sword with no trouble. Link was nothing but a simple knight. He'll die if he touches the sword. This is all my fault! If I had just not gone in here, the spirits wouldn't have consumed him so easily! I should've never done this! Why did I do this? I watched his hands grip the sword while I was unable to continue merely inches away from him. I wanted to scream but nothing happened when he touched the sword. He was fine... somehow. He began to try and pull the sword out of the pedestal, inhaling fast once as he did so, wincing slightly. Is he... dying? Do I have to watch him fall? I hoped not. My heart merely jumped out of my chest as the sword lifted slightly from the pedestal as Link tried his absolute hardest to pull it out. I had hope for him but was unsure if he could do it or not. Again the sword lifted slightly from the bound in which it had been placed. He can do it... can't he? I watched as the point of the sword became visible, the sword arising from its slumber. The blue power in which I saw yesterday moved around Link happily, revealing a sheath for the legendary sword. Link took it from mid-air and sheathed the sword carefully. The blue power disappeared within him. He was the chosen swordsman. I smiled a bit at him. 

Look at him... He's progressing faster than you. I frowned at that thought, hating the fact even though I knew it was true. Link had gotten his power so easily and would now be able to reveal himself as the legendary swordsman... And I... the Princess of Hyrule, had nothing to show. How could he? It's not his fault but he's so much better than I am and he just showed up one day. He's a commoner and yet he's stronger than me. He turned towards me, staring at me blankly with his ocean-deep eyes. I had nothing to say to him. I should've been happy that Hylia chose someone so close to me but I wasn't at all. I was humiliated. Curse you. I turned away from him, walking back towards the forest I had dreaded when I first came here. It was better than having to look at him and his success. I want nothing to do with him. I was surprised to feel his cold hand in mine, keeping me from taking another step forward. I looked towards him, making eye contact with him, knowing he wouldn't say anything but as soon as our eyes met, his whole expression was screaming at me. He wasn't showing any type of emotion yet I could see it in his eyes. He was in agony. Why? You have the sword. You're the chosen one. Why are you worried? Why won't you speak to me? I didn't understand any of it. He was trying to tell me something but I didn't understand. I don't want to. I pulled my hand out of his, walking back towards the forest, ignoring him as I did when I first walked out of the castle with him. I don't understand why he agitates me so or why I can't seem to get a word out of him. I just want to know what he's thinking, how he's feeling. I said to myself that I would communicate with him but I'm not sure if that's the right choice either. Should I remain silent as he is or should I open up wide for him to read me like a book? Either way, there will be consequences and I'm not sure I'll be ready to handle any of them.

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On our way back to Hyrule Castle, Link said nothing. I hated how silent he was whenever we walked anywhere. He said not a word to me or even communicated his discomfort. The moment in the forest when his face lit up seemed like a mere dream now and there was nothing I could do about it. I wanted so badly to understand him and yet he never gave me the opportunity to. There's no point. I have to keep talking to him. Eventually he'll say something because everyone has opinions that they're dying to share. He will have to learn that I will never be silent and that I expect him to talk as well whether he likes it or not. That's what I'll do. I won't give up.