𖧧𖤣 Ashtray
Ashtray's pov:
Lately i don't recognize myself, instead of letting y/n comfort me i have been having arguments with her.
I don't know what was going on, it is just Mouse told me that because of y/n the quality of my work was zero and i was trying to prove him wrong as i was loosing the most important person in my life without understanding - y/n.
If i lost her, dang man i would just give up but i was letting her go to be honest, we were fighting 24/7 and the worst part is that i blame everything on her, what have i become?
I obviously knew that i was not the same Ash, that tried to smile and change for better but now i was changing for the worst, i became a beast, i was always alone in my room trying to focus on the stupid work, when Fez or y/n came to check on me i instantly shouted at them..
I was letting my fear take over me, i was scared to be alone, i know it is so strange, Ashtray NOT wanting to stay alone but that was true, i was scared that one day i was going to loose my girlfriend or my brother..
It looked like as if the lava was pouring out of me that burnt everyone around me including myself.
I didn't even want to talk at all because i knew i was not going to say anything good, when i fought y/n she always tried to brush it off and understand me as much as possible but today was the last drop for her i guess, she got tired of everything and i totally understand, i was hurting her..
Today i was sitting in my bedroom as usual, y/n and Fez were downstairs talking to each other, i am happy that they have that brother and sister kind of relationship, when y/n got sad because of me Fez always managed to cheer her up, Fez talked to me multiple times telling me how bad i was behaving to my girlfriend and him
I was not paying attention to him until he said this
Fez: you know what? You will finally come to your senses when you loose her, you don't deserve someone like her
Ash: Fez get out
My sadness quickly turned into anger
Fez: no
Ash: I SAID GET OUT!
Fez: what has gotten into you?!
With that he left
Then y/n came
Y/n: hey angel how are you?
Ash: what do you want?
Y/n: nothing i was just checking up on you..
Ash: okay good, now you can get out
Y/n: Ash you know you can tell me what's wrong, you know that i won't judge you right?
Ash: y/n i have more important business than you, i am not literally in the mood to deal with... you because i know i am going to hurt you
Y/n: wow.. you are acting like you haven't been hurting me
Ash: just get out okay?
Y/n: no Ash, i tried to be patient with you, because i love you, but you are really rude to me and you are hurting my feelings so much, i am so confused, i don't even know what's wrong with you, but you have no right to just avoid and give me the most dry and rude responses, not only me, also Fez, but i am really tired Ash, i have been trying to understand you, but i obviously can't, no matter how hard i try i can't because this has no explanation, you have been saying stuff to me that i have never ever expected you to say, i guess i was wrong..
That completely broke me but i had to act cool and normal
Ash: are you waiting for me to say that you were right? Fine then you were right, happy?
Y/n: Ash just please-
Ash: y/n NO, I TOLD YOU MILLION TIMES NOW GET OUT!
Fez ran up to my room as soon as he heard me shout, no matter how mad i was at y/n, i never shouted at her
She flinched and stared at me with the fear in her eyes, wait did i scare her?
Bro what have i done
Fez: What the heck is happening
Y/n: n-nothing F-fez we are just talking
Fez left the room to give us the space
Ash: y/n, just to be simple please get out
I said this in the calmer tone
Y/n: alright i will get out but-
Ash: but what? Y/n i am already getting tired of you!
Y/n: i can't believe you, you are not the old Ash that i used to know
Ash: okay?
Y/n: you are hurting me Ash! Is this what you really want to do? Then okay if you want me to leave i will but as soon as i leave the room we are breaking up
My heart shattered in million pieces, is she for real?
But i deserve it
Y/n's pov:
I don't want to break up with Ash, i said this because i knew he wouldn't be able to handle it and he would talk to me normally again
I really love him and i knew he was going thru an unbearable pain that's why he was acting like this, but i want to help him so let's see.
Ash's pov:
Ash: okay, be done, be done, i don't care leave!
I said this but i avoided eye contact with y/n, i was looking around my room, everywhere but not y/n, because i was obviously lying..
Y/n: okay have a good day then
Y/n started to leave..
Ash: OKAY, OKAY, y/n please do not leave me, i need you right now so much, i can't live without you, you are the love of my life, i know i have been hurting you and i am so sorry..
I hate to say this but as i said this i had tears in my eyes
Y/n noticed too and hugged me immediately
Y/n's pov:
My plan worked and i was happy so so happy, finally i was able to talk to my favorite boy
Ash's pov:
This hug was the longest one, i felt like, if i pulled away she would just vanish, i already can't bare the pain i will feel if she leaves me..
I love her so much and i promised her that i wouldn't hurt her again.
Ash: i love you so much y/n, i really do, more than anything or anyone
Y/n: i love you too angel
I rested my face on her shoulder as the few tears fell down from my eyes
God i love her so much
A/n: i just imagined this in my head and i immediately knew i had to write it! What's your thoughts about it? Did you like it?
Thank you for reading! <3
