Caught in his Darkness

~ Chapter 30 ~

His smirk wide, "Let's try for a child, shall we?"

I was speechles. "No! No! I-I mean, you're not 100% yourself now, and I don't think a child would make sense at all right now."

He smirked. "So, if I'm sober you're willing to try?" Where is this conversation going, I need to stop it.

"M-Massimo, can we sleep?"

"Answer my question," he stubbornly persisted.

"Massimo, I told you this before. When there is no love between us why trying for a child?" That one made him go quiet for a moment.

"What if there are some feelings?" He bounched back after a while.

"Feelings? Explain," I demanded this time.

"Feelings, as in feelings what else?"

"You can't say it." I pushed him away from me slowly, getting on my feet, facing him with my back.

"Massimo, go to sleep before you embarrass yourself cuz I don't think you're sober."

I was about to walk away as he pushed my back against his body. His muscles almost massaged my back, they were tense.

"Let go Massimo."

"Look me in the damn eyes Leila," he spoke, his voice hoarse.

"What are you trying to do?" I asked as I turned around facing his intense gaze.

"Why are you in denial?" He asked now.

"First my que.." - "Shhh," he spoke as he placed his finger on my lips.

"Why are you still in denial Leila?"

"Denial?" He nodded. "I'm not in denial."

"Oh really?" He smirked. "Then explain this. Why does your heartbeat increase when I'm close?" He whispered as he leaned in. I felt it increasing in no time, especially since he mentioned it.

"B-Because I'm not used to have a person this c-close." He chuckled.

"Then why do you stammer. Baby."

Baby? I will die today.

"I- same reason." He kissed the corner of my lips, making me jump.

"Why do you turn red when I kiss you?"

I gulped. "B-Because it-it's beautiful."

"What?" He looked at me as he laughed hard.

"Massimo stop, I.." - "Leila," he took my face between his hands placing a kiss on my forehead.

"Don't you remember what I said to my mother back at the mansion?" I shook my head.

"Come on Leila, don't behave as if you didn't hear."

"I don't know what you mean." I replied, my voice almost unhearable.

"Leila, you are my woman, my wife, and I will never change you for another woman."

"Why?" - "Because I have feelings for you." His eyes focussed on my eyes trying to figure my emotions out.

"Feelings Massimo. That isn't love. You don't know what love is, do you?" He looked hurt, but this wouldn't end here. I need to clarify this today.

"I do."

"You can't love Massimo, your heart is too dark, too hard. The darkness of your soul is all around it, you can't love."

I guess I went too far. He pushed me slowly against the wall, the anger clear.

"Don't you dare to say that again," he hissed.