The Story of Us

Idle

(AFTER ONE MONTH)

ALISON DILAURENTIS

It has been a month since Em left for Texas. We graduated few weeks later after Em's departure. I'm lucky that I graduated because Spencer helped me. I didn't feel well after Emily left. I often get more and more attacks everyday. I always pass out, good thing the girls aren't there. I always wake up without someone assisting me. I'm used to be alone, that's why. I have been so depressed, every night I cry like a baby. Jason and Dad left for some business after my graduation, so I'm all alone here. It's Summer Vacation now yet I'm here at my room, not moving, nor flinching. I'm not eating, well, I'm eating bread and water everyday, but I do not have the power to eat meals. Every day there was tons of notifications and messages on my phone, I didn't care. The girls think I'm on a vacation somewhere, so they didn't need to go to my house.

I sent Emily an Email like, few weeks ago. I don't know about this feeling in my chest, it's telling me to fight this fucking depression and loneliness. On my mind, I think I'm giving up. I can't do this anymore. I can't stand the feeling the my love is too far away from me. I need her. I need her touch. I need her. I fucking need her. I can't blame her parents for this, they just want Em to have a wonderful future, I agree with that. I keep on thinking, what is she doing right now? Is she having a great time there? Is she happy being there? Does she cry every night like I do? Does she even miss me? Does she still love me? Oh, I forgot. We are not together anymore. She broke with me, right? That's what she said. And I believe her. I'm just a distraction. I'm fucking useless.

Okay. I need to take a break from this drama. I stood up, for once I feel great, standing again. I took a shower and ate breakfast. I secured my house after I went out, I don't know where am I going, I just keep on driving. Then I found myself standing in front of the Kissing Rock. Oh god, my tears were running down my face. I collapsed to the ground, knowing the attack can arrive at any minute. And it did. At least I had an attack in a better place. I intentionally didn't bring my inhaler, to be honest i feel suicidal. The next thing i know is that everything went black.

I woke up awake in someone's arms. In a girl's arms. I'm still at the Kissing Rock but I was moved. Who is this person? "Hey, you're awake. C'mon sit up." She said. I covered my eyes because of the sunlight, I looked at her. "Angel? What are you doing here?" I said, I know it's Angel because I can totally see my reflection.

"Nothing, I was just wondering through the woods, and I saw you passed out, so I helped you." She said with a smile on her face.

"Oh, thank you. It's always a coincidence when I pass out, you're always there. Or is this on purpose?" I replied, confused. She always comes into the right time, right when I pass out. She is so creepy, but at least she helped me.

"I think it's just a coincidence." She laughed a little bit.

"I have to ask you something." I said.

"Okay, what is it?" She said, smiling again. How can she be so comfortable when I'm not? I feel so creeped out by her presence, and she is making it more creepier than usual.

"Tell me who you really are. Are you a ghost? An Alien?" I asked, she just laughs, then I pulled out my serious expression, she stopped laughing.

"I do not believe in both sorry. I'm human! People always ask me that. It's because I'm creepy and I'm weird." She said, facing her head down. She has this sad expression on her face.

"You might be creepy but you're not weird, trust me." I said, cheering her up.

"Tell me why are you here exactly." She just ignored my cheer and shuts the conversation quickly.