OneShots 2.0

I'm Sorry

(WARNING! THERE WILL BE MENTIONS OF SU¡C¡D3 IN THIS CHAPTER! IF THIS IS A TRIGGER TO YOU THEN PLEASE SO NOT READ! STAY SAFE AND TAKE CARE!!)

Steve PoV
I'm in my room reading a book when my phone buzzes indicating that I have received a message. I look at the screen the messages are from Bucky. I smile at the screen since it is only showing me that I have two new messages from Bucky. I open the chat and read them.

My love:
Steve, I'm sorry.
My love:
I really messed up, help me.

Steve:
What do you mean Bucky?
What happend??

My Love:
It got bad again.
Help

Steve:
Bucky what is going on?!
How can I help??

My Love:
Tony left his sleeping Pills in the kitchen.
Steve, help me

Steve:
BUCKY DO NOT TELL ME YOU TOOK THEM!
BUCKY PLEASE DONT TELL ME YOU TOOK THEM!
I'm on my way! Where are you?

My Love:
Bathroom.
I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. I couldn't stop myself.
The container is empty.
Steve please hurry.

Steve:
I'm almost there Bucky!
Hold on!
Bucky??
BUCKY?
BUCKY ANSWER ME PLEASE!

Steve PoV
I have never run this fast! I open the door to Bucky's room and run to the bathroom door. I knock. No answer. I bang on the door. Still nothing. I feel hot tears run down my face. I take some steps back and smash my shoulder into the door. The door swings open and I see Bucky on the floor. There is blood and spit running out of his mouth, he's pail and his eyes are closed. "BUCKY!" I pick him up bridalstyle. I rush to medbay whilst telling FRIDAY to inform Bruce about what is going on. As I finally reach medbay Bruce takes Bucky into a room. "Steve I'm sorry but you need to wait out here." He says. Then he rushes into the room and the door falls shut. After a few minuts Natasha comes running to me. As she sees me crying, sitting on the floor against the wall, she comes over and pulls me into a hug. She's crying, she doesn't do that often. She stays with me and just hugs me. She is whispering something but I don't understand it.
(Time skip to a few hours later)
Natasha and I went to the common area about an hour or two ago and have been sitting on the couch there. We are both still crying. The other people in the room are Tony, Sam, Clint and Thor. After Natasha explained the situation it all became quiet. That is until Bruce comes into the room. We all look at him with hope and fear. He takes a second to breath befor letting out the two words that I wished so badly that he wouldn't say. "I'm sorry." I lose it. I scream befor Natasha pulls me into a tight hug. Then an unexplainable rage washes over me. I jump up and charge at Tony. I push him against the wall and scream out. "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT! IF YOU WOULD HAVE JUST PACKED AWAY YOUR STUPID SLEEPING PILLS HE WOULD STILL BE ALIVE! I HATE YOU!" Tony seems shocked and scared. I breakdown into his arms and start apologising. He couldn't have known. I cry into his shoulder for atleast an hour. After sometime I just get up and lock myself into my room. I sit on my bed, knees to my chest and just cry. I have just lost my best friend, my boyfriend, the only person that I still had left that has known me so well, is gone and I should have saved him.
(Timeskip to about a week later)
I have cried alot and I have passed out from exhaustion atleast once. I have refused to eat or sleep. I can't eat, I just can't. And I'm to scared to sleep. What if I get a nightmare what if I see that again or worst of all, what if another of my friends does it! I cannot lose anyone else! I just can't. I don't know how this will go on, but I'm scared, I'm so scared of doing this without him.