PUBERTY TWO [ FIVE HARGREEVES X READER ] ♡

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One day
( Eendag, translation )
Diana Ferrus

Beyond the mountain lies the long, long road.
There I shall go -
one day -
when the child's shoes don't fit my feet any more
and when I outgrow my frilly-dress,
I shall jump over my life and start another,
adult of my own, forgotten child of my mother,
missing child of my father.

One day I shall do my shopping on a Friday afternoon,
spending the evening sitting at the fireplace, contemplating my future.
I shall stroke my tummy in satisfaction
and seize the stillness of the night.
Music of Beethoven, Bach and MaClean
will echo through my heart.
In my kitchen the smell of sausage will linger on
and I shall remember these days.

These days of Friday-storms coming on all week
from the mountain, raging,
all day Saturday, ending on Monday.
These days of lying awake and fearfully listening at the night,
the hurled about reproaches, coming and going, over and over,
the fear of violence triggering disgrace
and the eyes of the people, sorry and sympathetic,
but also others unable to hide their scorn!

I shall scatter my hard earned money over the carpet
And ask the Lord to bless it.
I shall buy shoes that fit my feet.
My dresses will all be from smart shops
and a watch will adorn my wrist.
I shall wear sunglasses and greet every body
and remember these days.

These days of take-what-you-can,
your friend's mom sneering
at the arguments coming from your home,
the smell of liquor clinging to the walls
and never leaving your thoughts.

One day I shall write books, recalling this pain
and sigh softly
remembering these days.

@marcy_cupid