𝘽𝙞𝙧𝙙𝙞𝙚 // 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝘽𝙤𝙮𝙯 ✔

𝟭𝟮 • 𝗚𝗨𝗜𝗟𝗧𝗬

♤han chaewon♤

i stayed in bed all day, honestly. haknyeon had probably left in the morning, because when i woke up, he was already gone. some of them had checked on me, meaning not many since there were a lot of them that i didn't want to see. what could i expect from them? of course they wouldn't be able to keep a fucking promise, but i was the stupid one. stupid for just following him into that stupid room. i could have pushed him and just come up with the 'sangyeon told me not to' excuse.

but the door opened in a creak, a knock getting heard against it. it cut my thoughts off. i turned slightly in the bed, sunwoo was standing at the frame of the door. his arms were folded, his eyes seemed to be tired as well.

"i heard what happened, but you're not a teenager anymore, chaewon. you can't just hide in your room and play sulky for the rest of your days here." he said after he noticed that i was totally silent.

i rolled my eyes and buried my head back into the pillows. i clearly didn't need that. "okay." my word was muffled but i was sure he had heard it.

he sighed and sat at my desk, eyeing me from the corner of his eye.

"listen." he restarted, making me lift my head to look at him again. "you know what we are. we'll not pretend to be all innocent just because you're a bit affected. maybe it's hard to swallow, but that's it. you can't blame us for doing our job or giving you the opportunity to not die. you can't change us. you don't know us. so for now, you just have to know where your place is. i'm telling you, someone getting killed is almost a daily basis for us, and it's not the end of the world, geez."

i glared at him slightly, knowing that my place wasn't among them anyway.

"then why do you keep bringing me in the torture room?" i asked after a moment, they forced me to be there in the first place.

sunwoo, bit his inner cheek, his eyes traveling the ceiling in search of an answer. "well… i don't know myself. kevin is kevin, i guess. from what i got, he wanted to test you."

hearing him talking, i scoffed. he literally came up with the worst excuse.

"there's no use testing me. i'm nothing more than a prisoner." sangyeon's words replayed in my head. sunwoo gulped, leaning his head backward as he stayed quiet. what can he answer to someone that is right? "that's what i thought." i mumbled and did as if i was falling asleep.

i wanted him to get out of my room. sometimes, i was wondering why they were bothering me so much. this talk had been useless, and even if he thought he could fix things, he failed pathetically.

"i'm going then, since you want to keep this up." he said after a sigh. i was finally slightly happy to hear it, i wished i could be alone forever instead of being with them now.

i heard the door closing, and now that he was gone and that no one was in the room, i fell asleep. it was night yet they had found time to disturb me.

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when i woke up, birds were chirping and i could feel the fresh air on my face. i opened my eyes to see that this time, haknyeon was reading a book in a chair in the corner of MY room. i jolted completely awake and glared at him.

"it's my room." i scoffed tiredly and earned a glance from him. next to him, he had settled a fan so the wind was blowing loudly through the room.

"i know. but someone needs to be here to keep an eye on you." he explained and closed his book, he still had a smile upon his lips. "but do you want me to leave though?"

i got up from the bed and shook my head before he could stand up. i forced myself to smile at him because i didn't want to make myself another enemy here.

"don't bother, i'm gonna take a shower." i told him and he simply nodded. i then walked lazily to the bathroom with clothes in my arms.

i locked myself in, putting my new clothes near the sink when i stopped to look at myself. i kinda missed my purple hair, i looked more like me that way.

i took off all of my clothes and stepped into the shower, instantly making the warm water fall as i started to wash my hair. i felt like i would never fit in there. in this house with all these strangers around me. i hadn’t even really chosen to be with them. they were mentally ill, obviously. if i had to name all of their problems, it would take me eternity, and it would make me think about them even more. i only wanted to forget them.

the water managed to distract me from all these thoughts, and when i exited the shower, i hurriedly wrapped myself with a towel.

i recalled my conversation with sunwoo. i was sure that i had not overreacted, so why was i feeling so guilty about it?

okay so i added this chapter a few days ago, and the two following were originally not existing

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