Serie 3 - Abducted (On Hold)

CHAPTER 31

Elianna Lauren Silvestre

The unmeasurable pain in my chest...

That's how I felt the moment I saw them arresting him. I was there, I didn't leave, I felt powerless, I can't do anything.

My mind was filled by the sight of him... Only him.

Hindi ko lubos inakala na kaya niyang sabihin sa akin na ayos lang na bumalik ako kay Gael, alam kong para sa kaligtasan ko lang iyon, pero masakit pa rin na kinaya niyang sabihin iyon para lang iligtas ako sa eskandalo.

Alam ni Sebastien na hindi ko kakayaning harapin ang kahihiyan na kagagawan namin, kaya mas minabuti niyang patakasin ako.

I was crying and bawling nonstop when Kai and I are in the car, drving me away from the officials. The pain in my heart was too much, as if it was torn out of my chest.

I swallowed a hard lump on my throat. I looked outside the window and noticed it was slowly getting darker, I have no idea how long we we're driving. I just spend those hours crying, sleeping and calling for his name.

Kai was patient enough to drive for me in the next 24 hours. It's too risky if we opt on using a plane or any public transportation.

Hindi maalis sa isip ko si Sebastien. I don't even know what could he be doing, or is he really out behind bars now. Could this really be the end of it?

Love makes us stupid.

I love him... But I was too weak to tell him that I'll stay with him, and face all the consequences—we will face the consequences together.

What Sebastien did was also not okay, pero tawagin niyo na akong baliw o masama, mas pipiliin kong ipaglaban si Sebastien sa mali niyang gawain, kaysa  mahiwalay siya sa akin.

It's the law against us, if only I can manipulate the court and law, then I will do it... All for him, but I can't, since I'm powerless and poor.

You're more likely to escape lawsuits when you have power. Imposible naman na makakalaya at mapapawalang sala si Sebastien kung makiki-usap ako sa judge, o di kaya'y magmaka-awa sa mga nakakataas na palayain si Sebastien dahil mahal ko siya... Imposible.

Sebastien without by my side is what scares me the most, unlucky for us... It has already happened. I don't want to lose faith, but I'm starting to.

"Tahan na po sa pag-iyak, Ma'am." paga-alo sa akin ni Kai. "Ginawa lang ni Boss ang sa tingin niya ay mas nakabubuti para sa iyo."

I rested my head against the car window as I continued to cry silently. The pain in my chest is unbearable, and the only cure to this is to be with my Sebastien.

"In thirty minutes po, makakarating na tayo sa inyo."

I FEEL NOTHING BESIDES THE PAIN. I'm already at my parents' house, the house I use to live in. My old home, but it doesn't feel like home anymore, I feel at ease.

"Anak," tila nagma-makaawa ang nanay ko sa pagbanggit ng tawag niya sa akin, halos maiyak na ito dahil sa nanginginig na ang boses niya.

"sumagot ka na, bakit hindi ka na nag sa-salita?" humikbi ito kasabay ng pag-tulo ng luha niya at pinunasan ito gamit ang likod ng kamay.

"Ilang buwan kang nawala, akala namin namatay ka ka." you can hear the frustration on her voice. "Hindi kami tumigil na hanapin ka, hindi tumigil si Gael."

My attention instantly diverted towards her as she mention Gael. Suddenly, the guilt that I've been trying to hide was slowly eating me up.

I don't regret being with Sebastien, but I regret not having a clear communication with Gael especially that I didn't really cut ties with him, but rather I was forced by the situation that I actually enjoyed.