TRIGGER WARNING: Depiction of panic in paragraph one and two
Nat's POV:
Central Europe 07/15/2009
The guilt that was filling Nat's lungs was only getting worse when she felt the wet line that was cooling down the skin on her forearm. She had made Kate cry. She never meant for it to get this far. She never wanted to hurt her like this. She just wanted to help her. She just wanted to make sure she would be safe throughout this mission. She just wanted to...
The room started turning and the heat was rising inside her. Colorful spots spread across her vision as all her worries tried to break free. This wasn't the time to let this happen. Not the time or the place. She didn't know where Kate went but she had to get herself together. She had to stay strong. She stayed on the floor and rested her hands on her chest. She closed her eyes and took in breath after breath trying to convince herself that she wasn't the monster she believed herself to be. What if Kate sees her that way, too? What if she won't be able to make it up to her? What if Kate won't forgive her? She couldn't let that happen! She had to get up and do something. She had to try and apologize to Kate.
She opened her eyes and sat up only now realizing how much her side hurt. She had to have gotten a bruise from earlier but that didn't matter now. The only thing that mattered was, showing Kate she really was sorry for overstepping. Okay, maybe not the only thing that mattered she admitted when she heard the rustling from the communication devices inside the cockpit. She had to check in with the tower for the waypoint first. But then it's time to make it up to her!
Nat walked into the cockpit and knew exactly what she was going to do to apologize. She checked in with the radio tower and left the cockpit looking around for any sign of Kate. When she was sure that she wasn't around she snuck to the overhead compartments where they stored necessities and started to set everything up.
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TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of torture
Kate nodded her head to the vibrant chorus of Numb by Linkin Park trying to calm her anger. On the inside of her hand, her nails had left moon-like imprints that slowly disappeared. Her anger diminished as the last bits of melody played out. Regret grew inside her about her behavior. She let her rage take control. She hurt Nat. She might've deserved one or two hits to the ribs and maybe even the words that she had chosen but not the number of hits that she inflicted on her.
A knock on the side of her bunk bed pulled her attention back to the present. She pulled back the curtain and looked directly at Nat. They both looked down scared to make the first step.
"I..."
"Is some..", they both started and stopped. Kate signaled Nat to go on and she gave her a grateful nod.
"I have something I want to show you...if you want to come with me?", she asked carefully, ready to accept rejection.
"Alright.", Kate said and slipped down from her bunk bed and walked by Natasha's side.
The silence between them was awkward. Not something that either of them enjoyed. Nat looked over at Kate and gave her a genuine but shy smile before she opened the door to the cockpit.
Kate's mouth opened in awe at what she saw. The stars above them shimmered brightly and the clouds under the plane's nose had a purple-ish tone. She hadn't seen the stars this clearly since she had finished her piloting days.
She was so fascinated by the sight that she hadn't even noticed how Nat had slipped out of the cockpit and returned with a blanket and two cups.
"It's beautiful, isn't it?", Nat asked when Kate still hadn't moved a bit.
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