Dangerously In Luv | KTH

28: Vacation

Y/n's POV

[A few days later]

Tae and I got off work late, so we were pretty exhausted. We went straight to bed when we came home. I was snuggled in Tae's arms, head buried into his comfortable chest as he held me and played with my hair.

Even though everything is like how it was two weeks ago, I couldn't help but have what Taehyung told me in my head all the time. The guilt was eating me up, day by day. Every time I see Tae smiling, I feel worse. I just feel like, I don't deserve him... I was sad.

"Taehyung?" I quietly spoke.

"Hm?"

"Do you think, I will stay like this forever?" I asked.

Lately, I've been thinking about my amnesia a lot. Will I continue living without remembering the past 22 years? Maybe this is my punishment, for doing the horrible thing I did to Tae... I didn't like not knowing anything but I couldn't do anything about it.

"What do you mean, like this?" He asked confused. His voice resonated through my whole body.

"I mean, not being able to remember anything..."

"Oh..." He stayed silent for a while.

"I honestly don't know..." He confessed.

I let out a sigh.

"When I spoke to the doctor at the time you woke up, he said he wasn't sure if you were going to get your memories back. He only said that we should get you to come in contact with things from your past, like friends. I've been trying to do that, but till now, it doesn't seem to be working..." He said.

"So, I'm probably never going to get my memories back..." I sighed once again.

"I honestly think it's better you don't remember, but I get why you would want to. It's probably frustrating. When I can't remember a small thing, I already get so mad." He chuckled softly.

"Hah, yeah..."

"Don't worry too much about it. Maybe one day, you'll get it back." He encouraged. He always knew how to make me feel a little better.

"Maybe..." I honestly lost all hope, but who knows?

After a few seconds of silence and being lost in thoughts, I spoke up again.

"Tae?"

"Yea?"

I tilted my head up to look at his face. He looked back at me without a clear expression. It was dark so I didn't see much but every feature of his face that I could see was making my heart race and ache a little.

"If I get my memories back...Will you- will you leave me?" I asked in a weak voice.

I was scared he would me. I was scared that he didn't want to be with me anymore if I could remember the horrible things I did. He couldn't leave me. I couldn't leave him. I can't live without him, so he couldn't leave me now.

His face stayed the same, but a smile quickly came on it. He put one hand on my cheek and caressed it.

"Never." He simply answered. My heart felt lighter and a feeling of relief washed over me.

"But promise, that you won't leave me either." He said to me while he stared deeply into my eyes.

"I promise. I won't ever leave you, no matter what." I have no intention of letting him go now.

"Good." He gave me a peck on my lips.

"Let's go to sleep now. We have to wake up early tomorrow.

"Alright. Goodnight, Tae." I snuggled into his arms more and closed my eyes.