F: Gerard
F: Gerard?!?!
F: Gee bear please tell me what I did
I missed Gerard but this time I wasn't going to commit suicide and I knew Gerard loves me still but can't admit it because I don't know what I did because now I am staring at the ceiling and thinking "Where did he get Sharron from?" I threw my pillow somewhere letting tears drift down.
I decide to go out and smoke for a while so I take my phone just in case. The night was littered with clouds but the moon was visible outside, then some lyrics came to mind "Hand in mine into your icy blues" I never heard them but I opened notes to jot it down "And then I say to to you we can take to the highway" Jot it down because this song was good and I never heard it. Am I writing a song holy shit. "With this trunk of ammunition too I'd end my day's with you in a hail of bullets" God this is just like me and Gerard. Absorbing more nicotine I carry on "I'm trying, I'm trying to let you know just how much you mean to me" a tear fell as I carried on "And after all the thing we put each other through and I would drive on till the end with you, A liquor store or two keeps the gas tanks full" was I really this good "And I feel like theres nothing else to do but prove myself to you and we'll keep it running" Geeus I am a mess "But this
time, I mean it" I took another breather feeling the oxygen leave me instantly
"I'll let you know just how much you mean to me" If I could just get the chords for this than I would preform this to Gerard "As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything" I took another gasp of it letting more tears go"I'm trying, I'm tryingt
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold" I kept going though I had 15% phone battery left to survive
"Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of"
"I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold"
"But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky"
"Until the end of every..."
"All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this"
"As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever"
"Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever"
"Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun"
"And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down"
"I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever"
I never heard these lyrics and I never knew where they came from I just had them all drift to my head making me a tad dizzy but it was nice to get it off my chest.
By now I had finish my fag and is getting cold on my balconay so I put my phone on charge seeing as it has 5% left to last it a minute. I took PANSY my faithful guitar and strummed for hours and when I last looked at my phone clock I saw it is 6 am so there wasn't much point in sleeping so I went to grab coffee from the kitchen " You were playing a love song" My mom walked up to me "Every thing okay With Gerard" she asked concerned though she was in a rush for work to keep me and her alive "Don't worry" I sigh playing with the kettle "Okay but talk tonight if you want" she kissed my forehead and walked out.
When I got into school I noticed Gerard talking to a guy with the name of Alex (yes Gaskarth from All Time Low) who is a sophmore. "Hey Babe." I is caught of guard with pair of apple glossed lips on mine making me gag, "Sharron what was that for" I push her away and then I notice I bought PANSY to classes probarly in hope to get to play with Gerard "Ethan told me that you missed me and my lips so TADA" she laughed when I looked up Gerard is running away from me "Argh just leave you whore" I push her away walking towards where Gerard went "If I can't have you no one else can" she calls before I disapper around the corner.
I have to show Gerard that really did make me wanna throw up, like really may have to go bathroom.
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Messages From a boy ~ FRERARD
FanfictionWhat would you do if you got messages from a stranger who knew you but who was a no one to you FRANK- Bad boy that smokes with Tattoos and piercings, who gets his crushes number GERARD- Good boy that has A* in ART and pale skin and short black hair...
