asylum [rafe cameron]

twenty

Yes, I would agree that JJ was always there for me, but not since I came back from rehab. He's changed from being my best friend.

JJ and I make eye contact for what feels like hours. His eyes were cold, I've never seen him this way before.

"Yeah, well uh-" JJ says.

I could tell he was trying not to cry by the way he was sniffing and looking away from me.

"I'm right here." he laughs, looking around.

"Lets just go." I hear John B saying to Kiara as she shakes her head.

"I'm sorry, okay?" JJ admits.

"But you can't just keep overdosing."

"It hurts me too, you know?"

I look next to me, seeing Rafe laughing at JJ.

"And he's a fucking psycho!" JJ shouts, pointing to Rafe.

"I even went to your fucking dad for help." he laughs.

"And you know what happened." JJ says.

What? How could he do that to JJ. He knows I grew up with him. JJ's stayed over when my dad was sober. He knew JJ.

None of the other pogues even had a conversation with him because I was scared of what he could do. I couldn't believe it.

"I didn't know that." I mumble.

"Yeah, why would you?" he shrugs.

"Look- Gia, we love you." Kiara says.

"But you can't keep doing this to us." she states.

"To you?" I nod.

"Yeah." John B says.

"I'm not doing shit to you." I laugh.

"It affects us too!" Kiara states.

"Here you go again." I continue laughing.

"You only ever think about yourself." I say.

"That's not true, Gia." my mom steps in.

Shit, I forgot she was here and that she was supposedly sending me to rehab.

"You know what?" I shrug.

"I'm just gonna go off, by myself. Like always." I say, walking away.

"Cause you don't need us, right?" John B shouts.

I was thinking of replying with 'fuck off' or 'shut up', but I was so tired of the arguments. I was exhausted.

"Gia get back here!" I hear my mom shout.

~

I've ran far enough so the pogues and my mom wouldn't see me. I take a few breaths when I reach an isolated place, panting as I do.