𝑩𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆 || 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐌 𝐱 𝐅𝐞𝐦! 𝐘/𝐍

- 𝐘/𝐧'𝐬 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 -

What if i told you i can actually see?

Will you believe me?

Are you gonna be disappointed in me?

Saying that i was faking my illness?

No... you're wrong.

I'm actually blind but i can see, but it's different in what you see everyday

I can see the outline of the world as if i'm looking at an unfinished sketch.

I can see what's behind something but i can't identify liquid or when you freeze an object or what's written on the paper.

I use my hearing to identify everything.

Because everything has its own sound.

I can see with my ears.

I also needed to control my emotions because when i feel happy, sad, angry, and fearful too much then my head will be in pain.

I identify people's emotions based on their heartbeat, their sound, and their smell and i needed to memorize them.

I can't see anything so i needed to touch it for me to picture it in my mind.

But sometimes...i couldn't hear anything...i can't see the world like i used to see... it's just black..

And then i remembered.

I have autism.

When i relapse i usually stayed in the music room in my house.

It was soundproof.

Knowing this.

Will you still stay with me even though i lied to you?

Will you call me a monster like she did?

Will you feel scared? disappointed?

Because of these sharp fangs?

Or

Because I'm not someone you can be proud of?