Connors pov
I don't believe Niall. "Tell me the truth Niall" i say angry. I hate it when Niall lies to me. I know it by now cus he looks away most likely he looks at the ground. He knows i hate it.
"I don't know Connor!" He says angry too. "Yes you fucking do! Don't fucking lie to me! You know i fucking hate it!" I basically yell at him. It did wake up tris cus he came down.
"You lied to us all the time! It is that Mason told us! Again i don't fucking know hows blood it was! Btw why would you even care?!" Niall and i yell a lot if we fight and i now decide to ignore him. "Im gonna change. Cus we are going to school" i say.
Nialls pov
Connor walks away and i walk to his kitchen. My arm still hurts and nothing will make it go away unless i get new pain. I grab a knife and put it on my arm again.
Before i can even cut myself someone grabs the knife away. "Have you fucking last your mind Niall?!" Tristan asks. I just try to grab a new one but tris stands in front of it so i can't grab another one. I just ignore him. I will do it when i get home.
"Who was the blood from on your knife at home Niall?" Tristan asks sternly and worriedly. "I DON'T FUCKING KNOW AND I AM NOT GOING TO FUCKING SCHOOL EITHER! HAVE A NICE DAY!" I yell at them. It stopped raining and i know everyone left at home so I'll just go there. First the store cus i need cigarettes and not just one.
Tristans pov
Niall had cut himself? I walk upstairs to connor where he is crying in his own room. I hug him and calm him down. "I just wanna help him tris" he says with tons of tears in his eyes. I feel really bad. I send the lads a text that they need to find niall before he kills himself. Well not the last part cus i don't wanna tell them that.
They start looking and i just stay with Connor. "Do you think he will kill himself?" Connor asks scared. "No. The lads are looking for him right now. Even garden lad" i say.
Liams pov
I hear the front door open but it can't be a lot of people. I look and see Niall. He looks mad and angry and sad. He walks straight to the kitchen and i follow.
Not so he sees me but so i can see him. He grabs a knife and starts mumbling things while he fucking cuts himself. He later cleans the wounds and walks to me. He goes pale when he sees me.
"Wh-what are you doing here?" He asks. "I wanted to grab something to drink but then i saw you" i say. "If you ever tell someone liam i will get you faired!" He says a bit angry. "I won't tell but i do think you should tell someone" he shakes his head. Niall is a very stubborn person.
We walk to the garden. "Why did you do it?" I ask him. "Cus i am nothing worth and no one would ever notice if i was dead or care" he says sitting in the grass.
"I would care and notice! Your friends would care and notice! Your brothers woumd care and notice!" I see a soft smile on his face. Niall grabs a cigarette and gives it to me but i shake my head. "The last time i almost died!" He laughs and lights one up.
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i hate this life
Fanfictionlouis (18) zayn (17) and niall (15) are all prince's and louis is ment to be king and always follows the rules. Zayn sometimes follows the rules and niall never follows them.