Steven universe: A new generation

Pathetic

I ran until I caught myself again and stopped

I had no idea where I was.

But I did know that this wasn't anywhere near my street

I pushed through the fear and decided to look for the beach

I decided to go left since that was where the beach was before

I didn't see a single glimpse of it but I still heard the screaming and metal banging from here

It made me shiver when I thought about all those people giving their lives for this

It hadn't been a long time since I've started searching when I saw sand in the distance

I jogged towards it but quickly realized that it was just an old playground

My feelings were a mixture of dissapointment and relief

I actually wanted to go back to the battle but I was also scared you know?

I was tired, hungry and frightened.

I had almost been killed 3 times today and it was probably about to become 4 if I hadn't left

But... people are actually dying out there

I felt some strange kind of presence

"Maybe if you died, they wouldn't have."

Me: what? Who- who are you?!

"Your inner self. Nice to meet you."

Me: Excuse me what? That doesn't make sense.

"Yes it does. You know, maybe you're just too dumb to get it."

Me: hey now. that's not a nice thing to say.

"You're right. It isn't. the question is: do you actually deserve nice things? I mean look at you! You stand here talking to yourself while others die."

Me: I-

I didn't know what to say anymore...

"I mean come on! look at you! You're weak and dissapointing. No wonder your mother didn't want you."

Me: But- I- well- oh...

"What? You only realized it now? But I wouldn't put it past her. I mean really, you left your family and friends without protection just because you were scared? That's even worse. YOU are even worse"

Me: I- ...I know...

"God you're pathetic."

I didn't say anything else and just stared ashamed at the ground

"Oh now what? Are you gonna role in self-pity?"

...

"You're not even brave enough to speak to yourself? Seriously?"

Me: just- just shut up. I don't need you to tell me how pathetic I am. You already did.

"Well what if you deserve it?"

Me: you know, you shouldn't be able to talk to yourself like that.

"Yes I am"

Me: no I meant that you sound nothing like things I normally tell myself.

"What in the star forsaken galaxy do you mean?"

Me: exactly that. I don't use that. Hell I'm not even sure it exists! you're saying things you shouldn't be possible to say! That's against the laws of nature!

"Hehe. You're not as dumb as I thought you'd be~ But you like braking laws of nature. Don't you? Sorceress?"

I finally realized who I was talking too