i seal off the world at my ears.
i drift into a different reality where i only feel perfect melodies and sweetness. the phone is my anchor as i fly away to where my thoughts are just thoughts i can leave behind
i hear memories of better times i haven't found yet. emotions i can feel but not grasp. the golden sky is almost above me, and i almost see it as all real. it's like a serotonin shot, enchanting me with energy i feel like i've long lost
i'm doing better than i ever was
when i wander down the street alone, when i dance in my room as if everyone's watching, i can shed a little more of you from me. the flow of song says all the things i wanted to say, whispers all of the feelings i can't articulate. i immerse myself and just feel.
the music heals me for just a second and i feel regret, joy, wistfulness and departure. i can see you flying away, or maybe it's me willing myself into a different place where you're not in the story.
and i remember happiness had nothing to do with you and was all about me. the cassette tape is in my hand, and i write the notes inscribed into me. i rewind and shuffle, pushing you to the back of my memories. this feeling won't last forever, but in the music i can forget you with a smile on my face before your track plays again.
CZYTASZ
gold-tinted glasses
Poezjathe sky spills open and the flowers gleam gold, and looking up at the sunlight i see it all written clear as day in the trees a diary romanticising coming of age, relationships, heartbreak and love again
