I feel alone, I'm lonely
I feel numb, I'm empty
My head is spinning with all the words I can't seem to get past my swollen tongue
My seams are coming undone
And I'm screaming out for someone to pick up the pieces
But in a land of selfish narcissists
I'm kind of on my own
Pushed everyone away
Because I thought loneliness was better company
Than the tainted souls of the ghosts who haunt my dreams
I am my own worst enemy
Broke every mirror in this house because I can't stand the sight of me
This black hole of a soul just sucks everything in, spit it back out
The taste chokes the air constricting my throat
I'm suffocating on self-righteous thoughts
When did I set myself on such a high pedestal?
I'm sleeping on a bed of sharp edged crowns
Maybe if I press myself hard enough into the sheets
The points will pierce through this outer shell I wear like a cable knit sweater
Warding off potential suitors like friends
I'm running low on ammo
To fire at all the demons hiding under my bed
The darkness is eating away at the atoms drifting from my skin
Like tiny constellations
I'm losing my will to shine
In a world that is weak, I find it impossible to stay strong
How did Atlas keep the world hefted on his shoulders
When I can barely stand the idea of such a force on me?
Can't even carry the burdens of my friends, my baggage takes up the entire trunk of a car
There's no room left to hide the body
Of the porcelain doll I had sat high on the shelf
Her face a glass imitation of the sorrow I gorged upon
Laying awake at night I starved from the happiness I pushed aside, didn't deserve to feel good
The cracked surface of my lips begs for holy water
I can feel the poison inside, I need to be purified
If I kill myself, can I still go to heaven?
Because Hell seems too familiar for my taste
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Handle With Care (Poetry)
PoetryThis is a collection of the poems that I've written, the main themes you will find in this collection, are depression, love, and homosexuality. there will be others of course, the occasional funny one, a themed poem etc. I wrote most of these in the...