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The Truth!

I started the live.

"Hey there everyone.", I said after 5 minutes as about 10 million people were watching me. Woah I'm really scared. I know for sure they all will start hating me. I remained silent as these thoughts were coming into my mind.
'Y/n we missed you.'..........'Y/n I love u'..........'Y/n how are you.', I saw the comments.
"Guys today I'm here to share something important with you all, I know after this you all will start hating me.", I said as I started crying.
'Y/n what happened?'..........'Y/n why are you crying?'.........'We will never hate you.'...........'Are u alright?'.
"Guys u all know how much I love you all. You all mean the world to me. The thought of you guys hating me scares me to death.", I said as I bursted into tears.
'Y/n please tell us.'.............'We will never hate you.'.............'We love you the most.'
I wiped my tears and gathered the courage to say becoz losing my fans who are dearest to me more than myself is terrifying.
"Guys alot of things have been happening in my life, and I feel I can't tolerate this anymore. It's really difficult."
'Please dont hurt yourself.'.......'We are here for you.'............'Don't do anything stupid that can cause harm to you.'
"Guys with a heavy heart I'm saying that this maybe be my last live with you."
'What!'.........'Why, no. Don't leave us.'.........'Y/n don't say that, we love you'........'Y/n dont leave us please.'
"I'm sorry guys but I'm quitting K-industry.", I said as I sobbed and the comments went wild.
'Y/n No!'........'No no no no no.'..........'What happened? Why all of a sudden?'....'Are we the cause of it?'
"What no, you guys have been the best part of my life, it was all becoz of you that I learned I can love myself as well, I'm not worthless after all. Please just dont hate me.", I said as I sniffed.
'We dont hate you'.......'We can never hate you'............'We love u'.
"I never wanted to do this but I dont have a choice, I will be getting married by next week.", i said which dropped a bomb on hives.
'What, you can't do that!'........'Why are u doing this, is someone forcing you.'.....'We can help u if u r in trouble.'.........'Is someone blackmailing u?'
I cried as I couldn't take it anymore.
'Plz dont cry, share with us, we will help u'........'Y/n my heart aches to see u cry'......' I'm crying plz dont leave us.'
"Guys I will end my live now, becoz I can't take it anymore. Thank you so much for supporting me up til now and always loving me. I'm really grateful for that. I have one request. Please dont ever hate me. Take care. I loved u, I love u, and I will always love you. Good-bye."
'NOOOOOOOOOO'.......'DONT GO'........'Y/n dont leave us.'
Then I ended the live and cried the whole night. It feels like I'm cutting my own heart with a dagger.

Jungkook's POV:

"WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!", I yelled as I closed my phone.
"Is Y/n doing this becoz of me, am I the reason behind it? No no no, NOOOOOOOOOOO! What the fuck have I done. This is wrong, I have to talk to her tomorrow. Leaving the industry, quitting the career, and then worst of all getting married.", I said as I walked like a crazy person in my room.

Next Day:

I reached the studio and heard from hyung that Y/n will not be coming from now onwards, but he insisted that only a few episodes are left so she should complete it. He told Y/n will come in an hour.
After an hour she quickly came and we shot maximum scenes as possible becoz she wanted to end this asap. I didn't get even a single chance to talk to her.
After the shoot finished she went to changing room and I thought it was the chance to talk to her. I ran after her and as soon as I entered the room I locked the door and held her wrist pulling her close to me.
"What the hell is it Jungkook!", she yelled at me.
"U tell me what the hell was that Y/n, quitting being an idol and then marrying. Is this Han Sung who is forcing you all to do this? Tell me if it is him I will end up kil....", I was saying but she pushed me back and I got struck by the stand.
"Shut up, and get lost. I'm not bound to answer you and dont you dare to take out Han Sung's name from your filthy tongue.", she literally barked at me. I never saw her like this. Her face showed pain and anger together.
"Why are you doing this? Is it becoz of me?", I said as I went close to her.
"Who the hell are you that I will take my life's decision based on ur actions.", she said this which caused pain in my heart.
"I know you did this all becoz of what I said yesterday but trust me it was all an act to make you realize my importance."
"Hahaha, I dont care whether it was an act or anything real. It's your life, either marry one girl or fuck a million. I DONT GIVE A FUCK!"
"Can't you understand that I only love you? I have no one in my life besides u.", I said as I grabbed her shoulders.
"I dont care, becoz I dont believe in your so-called lies anymore!"
"I'm not lying listen to me once.", I said but she pushed me and decided to head out. This blew me so I went to her and pulled her, pinning her against the wall whereas my arms were on her either side preventing her to escape.
"YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME TODAY!", I yelled at her to which she got scared.
"Ever since my childhood, I was in love with you. Fine, I didn't like you at first becoz of the way you looked but that was becoz I was blind and I never saw your beauty. The other reason was that Ni- Yeon was the one who used to say so foul about you that it made me hate you. But I started to like u ever since I became a part of that plan. Ni-Yeon and I wanted to take revenge on you that is why we both made a plan to emotionally damage you and break you into a million pieces. At that time I hated you that is why I agreed but soon I realized that it was a mistake becoz when I started spending my time with u I got to know you are the one I always wanted. U are my type. It's true I built genuine feelings for you. All those kisses; they weren't a part of our plan. But I used to kiss you becoz I started being attracted to you. Not your face or looks but I was in love with your heart and soul. Whatever you heard between me and Cheery that day in the class it was all true. According to Ni-Yeon, it was a plan but I decided I will reveal my feelings. Cherry knows this. That day when I went back home, Cherry came in the evening and I decided that I will tell her the truth and I even did that. I told her that I won't be a part of this dirty game anymore and that I'm leaving Ni-Yeon becoz I wanted to be with you but the thing that Cherry told me next stopped me. She told that Ni-Yeon is suffering from cancer. She doesn't have much time left. Either I do what she wants and break ur heart or I should be with you and make her health worse. U might not know but Ni-Yeon died 1 month after you left. She was in the last stage. Whatever happened that night at the party I never wanted that. I could never forgive myself for what I did with you. All hyungs know why I did this and I even broke up with Ni-Yeon that evening after you left. I had to break you so that her health couldn't worsen. Ni-Yeon was a selfish bitch I agree, but I had no option left. Do you have any idea for the whole damn 3 years I blamed myself that u left becoz of me. I used to cry alot but nobody saw that. Then when u debuted my heart felt as if it got its heartbeat again. I fell in love with u again not knowing she is the same girl whom I broke very badly. I used to feel bad that why u behaved like this with me but the day u told everyone that u are Y/n, I felt my soul left the Earth. It was written in destiny to fall in love with u again. I could never give my heart to anyone besides u. I fell in love with u in my childhood, and I fell in love with u again in my adulthood. U are the only one I ever loved truly. That day when u fought with me before my accident I really wanted to die, I knew u hate me alot and nothing is possible now. I called Cherry to meet me but during my call, I was so sad that I started crying and ended up getting hit by a truck. I knew I will die. But u saved me and this again gave me hope that my story isn't finished yet. I know I messed up. Cherry warned me to neither ignore u nor do this fake girlfriend plan becoz this can worsen the situation but I didn't listen to her. I only did this so that u can come back to me but I failed. I love u Y/n I only love u. Please dont punish me like this.", I said.